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So I used to look forward to after work or long weekend because I play game. I consider myself a game addict. And I also watch porn (porn addict) and I'm also a popper user (chemical sex addict). 

 

Since Covid-19 I turned over new life. I stopped playing game. I stopped watching porn and I stopped sniffing poppers. 

 

Instead, I go home to gym, I run, I barely eat supper. I watch self help video. I read book after work. I go see a therapist every month. This has been going on for 2 years. I also stopped going sauna. 

 

I feel empty. I feel like it's not me. I feel like there is no excitement or rush or high in life anymore. 

 

Should I just go back to becoming a game addict? I used to look forward to new game releases and will schedule my life around gaming. Like take leave to play game for 24 hours etc. It feels exciting. I feel connected to other gamers. I felt a purpose. 

 

I also used to search and hunt for new porn every night, to download it and catalog it before it is removed by dmca or disappeared from Internet. Some porn are are. Etc. And I consume new porn every night. Like memorise it. Like can close my eyes and remember the cock etc. Replay it when I go to sleep. My brain feels very stimulated. And I orgasm every night. 

 

I also used alot of poppers, I go through one fresh bottle every week. My supplier even give me huge discount cause I bulk purchase. Like bulk bulk, he thought I'm reselling.... I used to take picture of me popper bating and send to him.. With my cock, saliva and drooling... Cause I was that high.... And fearless. 

 

I feel like that's my purpose. Should I go back to that Lifestyle? At least back then I feel sluggish at work but after work I'm rejuvenated. Now I just feel sluggish all day long. 

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We’re all addicts in some way, but I assure you it doesn’t actually fill that emptiness. I was a sex addict, and then a drug+sex addict. End up in prison but actually before going to prison, my life is even worse because of the drugs.
 

Finding some moderation in your life helps. Little bits of multiple activities. Btw what game you playing? 

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1 hour ago, Guest Lost said:

So I used to look forward to after work or long weekend because I play game. I consider myself a game addict. And I also watch porn (porn addict) and I'm also a popper user (chemical sex addict).

 

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2 hours ago, Guest Lost said:

So I used to look forward to after work or long weekend because I play game. I consider myself a game addict. And I also watch porn (porn addict) and I'm also a popper user (chemical sex addict). 

 

Since Covid-19 I turned over new life. I stopped playing game. I stopped watching porn and I stopped sniffing poppers. 

 

Instead, I go home to gym, I run, I barely eat supper. I watch self help video. I read book after work. I go see a therapist every month. This has been going on for 2 years. I also stopped going sauna. 

 

I feel empty. I feel like it's not me. I feel like there is no excitement or rush or high in life anymore. 

 

Should I just go back to becoming a game addict? I used to look forward to new game releases and will schedule my life around gaming. Like take leave to play game for 24 hours etc. It feels exciting. I feel connected to other gamers. I felt a purpose. 

 

I also used to search and hunt for new porn every night, to download it and catalog it before it is removed by dmca or disappeared from Internet. Some porn are are. Etc. And I consume new porn every night. Like memorise it. Like can close my eyes and remember the cock etc. Replay it when I go to sleep. My brain feels very stimulated. And I orgasm every night. 

 

I also used alot of poppers, I go through one fresh bottle every week. My supplier even give me huge discount cause I bulk purchase. Like bulk bulk, he thought I'm reselling.... I used to take picture of me popper bating and send to him.. With my cock, saliva and drooling... Cause I was that high.... And fearless. 

 

I feel like that's my purpose. Should I go back to that Lifestyle? At least back then I feel sluggish at work but after work I'm rejuvenated. Now I just feel sluggish all day long. 


you should talk to your therapist about handling addiction or find a support group. 

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Hmm.. 🤔 since you make efforts to be better why not continue to play game first but moderately? I guess gaming at least can occupy your empty or horniness? 

 

Having a regular FWB is good to when you feel like you host or him no need to use any pop there is lot of WAYS to stimulate 😂 fun sex...even naked cuddle can also helps or sensual or deep massage etc...

 

I hope you don't go back 🔙 to your past habits but moderately take time for your passion. Gaming is good to destress too. And you can also visit on site gaming events soon to be in SG. Hope you can fight this stay positive! And remember that you have make it thru' much better then before. 

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13 hours ago, Guest Wtf said:


you should talk to your therapist about handling addiction or find a support group. 

 

Here's the thing. I still don't feel comfortable sharing this part with my therapist. I talked to my therapist to deal with other issues like social anxiety or anger management or depression. Never about gay or my true pervert self. Cause later I will become addicted to the idea of sharing my perversion with someone and getting excited about it. 

 

So I rather not share that dark secret of mine. Just talked about the trivial nonsensical stuff. Can't really trust therapist 100%,they have some clause that mentioned that they can reveal the information to authority if they feel our life is in danger or etc.

 

Like if you say you have some bad thoughts about terrorism. Etc. The therapist will report you one.. 

 

So better not. 

 

 

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1 hour ago, MasterFitMalaySG4U said:

Hmm.. 🤔 since you make efforts to be better why not continue to play game first but moderately? I guess gaming at least can occupy your empty or horniness? 

 

Having a regular FWB is good to when you feel like you host or him no need to use any pop there is lot of WAYS to stimulate 😂 fun sex...even naked cuddle can also helps or sensual or deep massage etc...

 

I hope you don't go back 🔙 to your past habits but moderately take time for your passion. Gaming is good to destress too. And you can also visit on site gaming events soon to be in SG. Hope you can fight this stay positive! And remember that you have make it thru' much better then before. 

 

Cause I have addictive personality. I can't just play game 1 hour. My gaming is like those 8 hours. Yes I used to rush home to game from 7 pm to 3 am on workdays.. To play with American timezone... 

 

Playing game for 1 hour is like asking me to just let someone suck my cock for 5 seconds. I cannot. You better suck until I dry. 

 

Its like going to a buffet and just taste a prawn and stopped? No way. Eat every dish. Seafood. Meat. Noodles. Desserts. Eat then rest and eat to the heart content until satisfied until feel like throwing up.. 

 

Play until dead tired need to zzzz. Watch and edge porn until no more cum to ejaculate

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8 minutes ago, radiusulnar said:

Good you are seeing therapist. Tell the therapist how you feel and see if there is any way to help. I felt that my life was numbing no meaning no joy before. I was diagnosed with mild depression and with help I eventually recovered. 

 

Everyone has depression in this modern age. Just saying. 

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5 minutes ago, Saggiboy said:

Everything in moderation 

 

That's the thing I scared I can't stopped so I have to quit cold turkey. I deleted my online game account. Can't go back.. Not I'm just thinking of trying new game but scared will be addicted again. 

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Hope you are not trolling.

 

But anyway, why wanna go back to your past when you know its bad? As we get older and older, shouldn’t we be more kind to ourselves?


I think it’s okay to game moderately and know when to stop. Gaming itself is not a bad activity anyway.

 

I don’t see anything wrong with watching porn either. Just dun get addicted to it and think of porn 24/7. Most porn are staged and are not real anyway.

 

As for poppers, I think you should stop totally. Before you know it, you will be aging fast and look older than your actual age.

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Sounds like you have an addiction to both games and porn. It can give you the high, but it'll take things away from you in other areas of life. If you want to stop completely, you'll probably have to reconcile with the possibility that you will never get that high ever again. I don't know the specifics of your situation, but I feel like you might find something useful in this vid: 

 

 

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44 minutes ago, buffering said:

Sounds like you have an addiction to both games and porn. It can give you the high, but it'll take things away from you in other areas of life. If you want to stop completely, you'll probably have to reconcile with the possibility that you will never get that high ever again. I don't know the specifics of your situation, but I feel like you might find something useful in this vid: 

 

 

 

But why is sex addiction wrong? 

At least it's not alcohol addiction or gambling addiction or stock market money addiction or lottery buying addiction... 

 

Human are made for sex. Did god create us and say you can only have sex to make babies? Well our grand design is that after we ejaculate, we will lose the desire to cum again or have sex.... Until that desire return... Its part of God design on how man works... 

 

So if we obey the grand design we are meant to have sex alot... If God didn't invented the refractory period, we would all be fucking non stop... 

 

I think human are made for that. Hunting and breeding. We can't tell someone to stop eating.. Cause food addiction is bad.... We can't tell someone to stop having sex... Cause sex addiction is bad.. 

 

If God didn't want us to enjoy sex, he wouldn't made it so pleasurable... Think about it.. 

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14 minutes ago, Guest Lol said:

 

But why is sex addiction wrong? 

At least it's not alcohol addiction or gambling addiction or stock market money addiction or lottery buying addiction... 

 

Human are made for sex. Did god create us and say you can only have sex to make babies? Well our grand design is that after we ejaculate, we will lose the desire to cum again or have sex.... Until that desire return... Its part of God design on how man works... 

 

So if we obey the grand design we are meant to have sex alot... If God didn't invented the refractory period, we would all be fucking non stop... 

 

I think human are made for that. Hunting and breeding. We can't tell someone to stop eating.. Cause food addiction is bad.... We can't tell someone to stop having sex... Cause sex addiction is bad.. 

 

If God didn't want us to enjoy sex, he wouldn't made it so pleasurable... Think about it.. 

 

The problem is not with sex but with addiction.

 

I'm curious, what convinced you to change your lifestyle two years ago?

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On 5/23/2023 at 3:00 AM, Guest Lost said:

So I used to look forward to after work or long weekend because I play game. I consider myself a game addict. And I also watch porn (porn addict) and I'm also a popper user (chemical sex addict). 

 

Since Covid-19 I turned over new life. I stopped playing game. I stopped watching porn and I stopped sniffing poppers. 

 

Instead, I go home to gym, I run, I barely eat supper. I watch self help video. I read book after work. I go see a therapist every month. This has been going on for 2 years. I also stopped going sauna. 

 

I feel empty. I feel like it's not me. I feel like there is no excitement or rush or high in life anymore. 

 

Should I just go back to becoming a game addict? I used to look forward to new game releases and will schedule my life around gaming. Like take leave to play game for 24 hours etc. It feels exciting. I feel connected to other gamers. I felt a purpose. 

 

I also used to search and hunt for new porn every night, to download it and catalog it before it is removed by dmca or disappeared from Internet. Some porn are are. Etc. And I consume new porn every night. Like memorise it. Like can close my eyes and remember the cock etc. Replay it when I go to sleep. My brain feels very stimulated. And I orgasm every night. 

 

I also used alot of poppers, I go through one fresh bottle every week. My supplier even give me huge discount cause I bulk purchase. Like bulk bulk, he thought I'm reselling.... I used to take picture of me popper bating and send to him.. With my cock, saliva and drooling... Cause I was that high.... And fearless. 

 

I feel like that's my purpose. Should I go back to that Lifestyle? At least back then I feel sluggish at work but after work I'm rejuvenated. Now I just feel sluggish all day long. 

 

Hopefully you are smart and do some introspection to seriously evaluate your options,  since you seem to have the freedom to choose among them.

 

You surely know that youth does not last forever, and that there are physical and emotional changes along the way.  You have any interest in one day being a senior, in living as long as possible?   Maybe you are religious and you want to die as soon as possible to reach an afterlife of heaven?  Or you don't believe in any afterlife and you want to be able to be conscious and breathing for as long as possible. 

 

In the preference, the desire to be always young and strong and never having to age,  your old lifestyle may give you the most satisfaction.  Remember to make a will for your heirs to inherit after you pass away.

 

But perhaps you dream with a long life,  and in this case reason dictates that you do some kind of deferred gratification.  Exchange some enjoyment today for a better future life.  In this case,  be satisfied that you can maintain your current lifestyle with the only penalty that you feel empty and sluggish.   Satisfied that you are not devastated by the cravings for your former addictions.  Satisfied that you are still fully healthy and functional, without pains all over.  And the only negative you have to endure is your emptiness and sluggishness.  

 

Can your smart introspection and analysis of alternatives come up with some trust that the emptiness and sluggishness, even if existing today,  could be replaced with new interests in the future life?  What if you fall in love?  If you discover some activity, some hobby, some art, some discipline that becomes a passion?  It would not be the first time this happens to someone.  Proof of this is the large number of happy seniors that we exist today in society.

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On 5/24/2023 at 2:04 PM, buffering said:

 

The problem is not with sex but with addiction.

 

I'm curious, what convinced you to change your lifestyle two years ago?

 

Covid. My house mate is at home at all the time during covid. Before Covid-19 I will come home and dildo fuck myself with poppers etc. My house mate works night shift. So he comes back after midnight. Then when I go to work, he had the whole unit to himself. I also got a very bad nose allergy due to poppers. Either the ingredient changed or I damaged my nose... Its like when I sniffed it, it feels very very bad. Like a sting and make my nose all blocked. Then it's was like during Covid-19 ppl having nose or cough issue is suspect. And I was like coughing and running nose.... So I better stopped. 

 

If Covid-19 didn't happen, I'll probably still be addicted. Also during Covid-19 I was just playing game. Work from home also play game. Play until I got bored really... That's when I started to go for run... Cause everyone also feel suffocated at home.. And it felt nice to be out. Breathing fresh air. 

 

So I slowly pivot to exercise. Then I also started gym cause too much time during covid. Like that lo

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58 minutes ago, lean n mean said:

Variety is the spice of life. Moderation is key. Extremity and deprivation causes imbalance. 

 

I see. So if I take Joseph schooling case, its okay to smoke cannabis once in a while as long as it in moderation? 

 

Or... 

 

If I sexually penetrate someone, just the tip la, don't charge me go jail cause I enter less than 5 seconds.. Don't count?... 

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6 hours ago, Guest Like that lo said:

 

Covid. My house mate is at home at all the time during covid. Before Covid-19 I will come home and dildo fuck myself with poppers etc. My house mate works night shift. So he comes back after midnight. Then when I go to work, he had the whole unit to himself. I also got a very bad nose allergy due to poppers. Either the ingredient changed or I damaged my nose... Its like when I sniffed it, it feels very very bad. Like a sting and make my nose all blocked. Then it's was like during Covid-19 ppl having nose or cough issue is suspect. And I was like coughing and running nose.... So I better stopped. 

 

If Covid-19 didn't happen, I'll probably still be addicted. Also during Covid-19 I was just playing game. Work from home also play game. Play until I got bored really... That's when I started to go for run... Cause everyone also feel suffocated at home.. And it felt nice to be out. Breathing fresh air. 

 

So I slowly pivot to exercise. Then I also started gym cause too much time during covid. Like that lo

 

Oh... I hope your nose is getting better. Also, sounds like you made better use of the circuit breaker than I did sia haha

 

I feel like, it boils down to whether you have control over your habits. If it got to a point where you feel compelled to binge porn/games/poppers without really enjoying it, and it affects your work or social life or even your self-worth, then it doesn't sound like a good idea to go back to those habits.

 

If running and gymming is getting too boring for you, maybe can try getting into activities that will make you socialize with people face to face? 

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7 hours ago, Guest Wrong is wrong said:

 

I see. So if I take Joseph schooling case, its okay to smoke cannabis once in a while as long as it in moderation? 

 

Or... 

 

If I sexually penetrate someone, just the tip la, don't charge me go jail cause I enter less than 5 seconds.. Don't count?... 

whos talking abt crime? If u r not an idiot, u will know theres an exception to everything in this world. So does this stop us fm offering a point of view? I m just sharing that taking a middle path in life with compromises made along the way may be more workable/practical/applicable for some. 
 

btw u can always penetrate yr mom n she wont report u to the police. See, now u can feel how irritating it is to talk cock and not contribute to a proper discussion. 

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10 hours ago, lean n mean said:

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whos talking abt crime? If u r not an idiot, u will know theres an exception to everything in this world. So does this stop us fm offering a point of view? I m just sharing that taking a middle path in life with compromises made along the way may be more workable/practical/applicable for some. 
 

btw u can always penetrate yr mom n she wont report u to the police. See, now u can feel how irritating it is to talk cock and not contribute to a proper discussion. 

 

I rather penetrate my dad

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