Jump to content
Male HQ

A RANT: I’m in love with my close friend. (Sigh, not again)


MeeMee

Recommended Posts

A little backstory:


I’m nearing my 30s and I’ve yet to lose my virginity (it’s not really a big deal, guess I’m a wizard now) and have not experienced a proper relationship with a partner due to my own insecurities and religion. I don’t really use dating apps due to the fear of being exposed. I’ve never really tried to explore my sexuality as I know since young that I’m gay as fuck. But that’s besides the point. I know I can’t risk getting married to a girl who loves me wholeheartedly while I secretly like men. I mean I tried dating girls but I don’t seem attracted to them at all even if i wanted to. I’ve liked a few guys throughout my life but I’ve never confessed to anyone before, being afraid of rejection and ridiculed.

 

But then I met this guy at work, who is few years younger than me.

He’s 6/10 in terms of looks but he’s cute to me at least. He’s slightly taller than me, and he’s not that skinny and has really slender hands (compared to my rough ass hands). 

I told my self to not crush or fall in love with anyone unnecessarily at work and tried to convince myself that he’s unattractive but apparently that didn’t work.

 

He’s really a gentleman. I shall not go into details (because it’s gonna take awhile) but he’s extremely thoughtful and treat his friends like gems. It’s the little things that he does that made me like him even more than I should have. We talk a lot and got to know each other and eventually became close buddies. I know for a fact that he’s single and straighter than a ruler but i can’t help the fact that I get jealous whenever he talks about girls he’s interested in. All in all, I didn’t let my feelings show and thought through the situation rationally and gave him honest advice. 

Well, the reason why I decided to rant was that I felt that this was the final time I’m gonna crush on someone( at age 30 no less). He felt like the ONE you know? But alas, he’s straight ;/

Unrequited love hurts like a truck and I do fantasize my dreams and future with him. But I know thats not gonna happen. I do not plan to get married in the future and just live the rest of my life alone peacefully, somewhere quiet I guess. Love comes and goes and I can never forget the ones I gave my heart to.

 

Hey GS, if you’re reading this(which I don’t think will ever happen but oh well), I just want to let you know that I’ve liked you for some time now and I think that you’re really attractive and a great guy. Some people can’t seem to notice how nice of a human being you are and please know that I appreciate you being there for me. Gifting is my love language. So I shall pass you your parting gift (my last gift I swear) which was the item that you wanted. Please do let me know if you ever need anything.


Your # 1 fan,
MS.

 

Link to comment
14 hours ago, MeeMee said:
14 hours ago, MeeMee said:

I get jealous whenever he talks about girls he’s interested in.

 that he’s unattractive but apparently that didn’t work

6/10 is still not that bad

 

& u ddint try to strike a convo further on gals?


GS?
 

14 hours ago, MeeMee said:

Hey GS, if you’re reading this

 

Link to comment

Join the conversation

You can post now and register later. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.

Guest
Reply to this topic...

×   Pasted as rich text.   Paste as plain text instead

  Only 75 emoji are allowed.

×   Your link has been automatically embedded.   Display as a link instead

×   Your previous content has been restored.   Clear editor

×   You cannot paste images directly. Upload or insert images from URL.

×
×
  • Create New...