JayRoss55 Posted April 19 Author Posted April 19 On 4/13/2026 at 10:32 AM, AppleEater said: the gayest thing about me is probably the huge collection of gay photography books by the likes of Robert Mapplethorpe, Herb Ritts, Bjorn, David Vance and etc. Otherwise I am very straight acting and nothing about me shouts gay. Your collection speaks volumes about your identity even if your everyday demeanor doesn't "read" as gay. Ultimately, the art you love is just as authentic a part of you as how you act. Quote
QinWei Posted April 19 Posted April 19 -dance to the tunes of Music but not in a womanly way or mimic the dance steps of Madonna ... I appreciate the songs and lyrics from a music appreciation angle actually this has nothing to do with Orientation right? -Dressing well at times? as they tend to say Gays tend to dress well and skin-care well but I hardly looked at the mirror at all I am shocked that men can spend time looking at their own reflection for more than 1 seconds at the toilet Quote there are more than one option avail in googling me https://x.com/gnnbccb?s=21&t=WxsKRj9hm-pT2wyoEmonPQ
Excite Posted April 23 Posted April 23 The gayest thing about myself would be that i often broadcast myself and just be expose myself(spreading my legs, showing my buttcheeks to people online etc) while they masturbate to me. I would pleasure myself together with them. But the second after my release, i feel disgusted and have to stop for days/weeks before I do that again. Quote
lx Posted April 24 Posted April 24 I like to put on the cock cage and wear a jockstrap under my usual decent clothing.. Quote
JayRoss55 Posted April 29 Author Posted April 29 On 4/23/2026 at 3:44 PM, Excite said: The gayest thing about myself would be that i often broadcast myself and just be expose myself(spreading my legs, showing my buttcheeks to people online etc) while they masturbate to me. I would pleasure myself together with them. But the second after my release, i feel disgusted and have to stop for days/weeks before I do that again. The cycle you're describing, intense arousal followed by disgust and withdrawal, is a classic shame-driven loop, not a reflection of your core worth or identity. That immediate post-orgasm disgust suggests your brain is reacting against the behavior itself, not your sexuality, and breaking the pattern usually starts with separating the act from self-judgment. Speaking with a sex-positive therapist could help you understand the emotional triggers (loneliness, validation, stress) behind the urge, so you can regain a sense of control without the crash. Quote
Raydes Posted May 1 Posted May 1 Friend:” Oii! Leng lui!!! … you are not watching? Are you gay?” me:……!!! Quote
JayRoss55 Posted Saturday at 08:52 AM Author Posted Saturday at 08:52 AM That sharp post-orgasm disgust is a sign of shame conditioning, not a true reflection of your desires or worth. Recognizing that the cycle is about the emotional context, not your core identity, gives you the power to interrupt it. Quote
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