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im getting so tired w my life. i dun even know how to put a finger to it

 

i feel very alone, not sure if its my inadequacy to socialise and form string bonds, but im sick of feeling unwanted in sch and everywhere else. some ppl say its ok, uni is like that, however these are the people who are comfortable with themselves, and have safety nets outside, be it external cliques, family, or just mentally strong enough to ignore all these. i cant. and im tired. im developing more and more health issues. im fat, im ugly, i have moobs abnormally big for someone else of a similar stats. im tired of trying. psychiatrist and psychologist dont sense my desperation and urgency unless im suicidal, which is insane. the repeated times this has been said to me might be the very reason im suicidal.

im very happy w sch, my getaway is tv, but i havent found anything to be distracted by lately (lull periods in tv schedule), and feeling crappier by the day. almost cried in class tat day. im afraid of being alone because im gay and i have no one, and know i have no one that i can be with till i die because of society. im uncomfortable with myself. my memory has become so bad, i cant catch up, and have no feelings to study thru uni. what is uni? everyone having fun and im just left alone, fomo-ing. social media is a killer. social comparison makes me sick, but i cant help but be stuck to it. nothing is helping. i just want to be loved, by friends, around my age so we know we r gg thru the same stages in life.

i dun drink, smoke, club, i dun wish to do all those just to have frds, str8 gay or bi. but im tiredddd. i need help, nobody is offering me a helping hand. my questions are returned w questions by my therapist. if i knew what i needed i wont be here. my expectations, they may be high, but i havent been taught how to be brought back to reality. whats normal? normal???? i feel so fucking abnormal. if there are legit any kind souls out here, free from egos, and just a genuine personality, pls lend me a helping hand. superficiality, yes i do have it too, but i know where to draw the line.

im

just

tired

alone

and i dun wanna wake up

 

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Its your life and if u don't take charge, no one else will...........physical appearance can be improved with diet control, exercise, a proper haircut and a better dress sense (better dress sense does not equal to branded clothing which a lot of people are confused with)

 

social media is killing, yes, completely agree, while it make distant people closer but it definitely make closer people distant...you can shun it off, u have a choice, engage in a activity that u like, go out to meet real people instead of virtual ones

 

the concept of alone and lonely have been discussed many times in this forum but hey u belong to the majority, I would say more than 70% are single out of which perhaps half are lonely, "if u can't beat them, join them" :P

 

If we can't love ourselves, how to expect others to love us? but then the irony is once we love ourselves too much, we tend to focus only on ourselves :whistle:

 

last resort, consult a professional psychologist for help

 

 

 

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Come join us at the main chat and hang around until you make alot new friends! Also we have food outings and local food tours so yeah.

 

Other than that yeah there is so much we can tell you but ultimately we need you to find someone you are comfortable with to iron out the issues and take steps to make stuff better.

 

And... we all love ya. Hugz

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8 hours ago, jubjub said:

im getting so tired w my life. i dun even know how to put a finger to it

 

i feel very alone, not sure if its my inadequacy to socialise and form string bonds, but im sick of feeling unwanted in sch and everywhere else. some ppl say its ok, uni is like that, however these are the people who are comfortable with themselves, and have safety nets outside, be it external cliques, family, or just mentally strong enough to ignore all these. i cant. and im tired. im developing more and more health issues. im fat, im ugly, i have moobs abnormally big for someone else of a similar stats. im tired of trying. psychiatrist and psychologist dont sense my desperation and urgency unless im suicidal, which is insane. the repeated times this has been said to me might be the very reason im suicidal.

im very happy w sch, my getaway is tv, but i havent found anything to be distracted by lately (lull periods in tv schedule), and feeling crappier by the day. almost cried in class tat day. im afraid of being alone because im gay and i have no one, and know i have no one that i can be with till i die because of society. im uncomfortable with myself. my memory has become so bad, i cant catch up, and have no feelings to study thru uni. what is uni? everyone having fun and im just left alone, fomo-ing. social media is a killer. social comparison makes me sick, but i cant help but be stuck to it. nothing is helping. i just want to be loved, by friends, around my age so we know we r gg thru the same stages in life.

i dun drink, smoke, club, i dun wish to do all those just to have frds, str8 gay or bi. but im tiredddd. i need help, nobody is offering me a helping hand. my questions are returned w questions by my therapist. if i knew what i needed i wont be here. my expectations, they may be high, but i havent been taught how to be brought back to reality. whats normal? normal???? i feel so fucking abnormal. if there are legit any kind souls out here, free from egos, and just a genuine personality, pls lend me a helping hand. superficiality, yes i do have it too, but i know where to draw the line.

im

just

tired

alone

and i dun wanna wake up

 

Hi there,

 

Towards a certain point in life you have to decide to take charge of your life. Please know that you are not alone in this life. There will always be people who ridicule, scorn and do other bad things to you but also there are some who would help and lift you up. Know how to look for the right people. Life is a mix of both and it's a long learning process.

 

Hang around with your friends or make new friends but know how to differentiate between the good and the bad. Live life for yourself not for the society. Do what you love to do. Who cares what others think, it's your life. You will be fine as long as what you do does not cause harm to others.

 

Please take care ya! I wish for you to have the clarity of mind to see through things and take action for your life step by step until you feel better about yourself.

 

Hugs!

 

 

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15 hours ago, lonelyglobe said:

Its your life and if u don't take charge, no one else will...........physical appearance can be improved with diet control, exercise, a proper haircut and a better dress sense (better dress sense does not equal to branded clothing which a lot of people are confused with)

 

social media is killing, yes, completely agree, while it make distant people closer but it definitely make closer people distant...you can shun it off, u have a choice, engage in a activity that u like, go out to meet real people instead of virtual ones

 

the concept of alone and lonely have been discussed many times in this forum but hey u belong to the majority, I would say more than 70% are single out of which perhaps half are lonely, "if u can't beat them, join them" :P

 

If we can't love ourselves, how to expect others to love us? but then the irony is once we love ourselves too much, we tend to focus only on ourselves :whistle:

 

last resort, consult a professional psychologist for help

 

 

 

 

13 hours ago, Zc_ said:

Hi there,

 

Towards a certain point in life you have to decide to take charge of your life. Please know that you are not alone in this life. There will always be people who ridicule, scorn and do other bad things to you but also there are some who would help and lift you up. Know how to look for the right people. Life is a mix of both and it's a long learning process.

 

Hang around with your friends or make new friends but know how to differentiate between the good and the bad. Live life for yourself not for the society. Do what you love to do. Who cares what others think, it's your life. You will be fine as long as what you do does not cause harm to others.

 

Please take care ya! I wish for you to have the clarity of mind to see through things and take action for your life step by step until you feel better about yourself.

 

Hugs!

 

 

 

15 hours ago, firefight said:

Come join us at the main chat and hang around until you make alot new friends! Also we have food outings and local food tours so yeah.

 

Other than that yeah there is so much we can tell you but ultimately we need you to find someone you are comfortable with to iron out the issues and take steps to make stuff better.

 

And... we all love ya. Hugz

 

15 hours ago, lonelyglobe said:

Its your life and if u don't take charge, no one else will...........physical appearance can be improved with diet control, exercise, a proper haircut and a better dress sense (better dress sense does not equal to branded clothing which a lot of people are confused with)

 

social media is killing, yes, completely agree, while it make distant people closer but it definitely make closer people distant...you can shun it off, u have a choice, engage in a activity that u like, go out to meet real people instead of virtual ones

 

the concept of alone and lonely have been discussed many times in this forum but hey u belong to the majority, I would say more than 70% are single out of which perhaps half are lonely, "if u can't beat them, join them" :P

 

If we can't love ourselves, how to expect others to love us? but then the irony is once we love ourselves too much, we tend to focus only on ourselves :whistle:

 

last resort, consult a professional psychologist for help

 

 

 

 

15 hours ago, Ezra81 said:

I feel u. I have e same feeling too. Tired with life n everything or everyone ard me. :frustrated:

 

22 hours ago, cmlf said:

thanks for sharing with us, bro ... hope this resource info may offer you encouragement, support:

 

https://www.psychalive.org/i-hate-my-life/

 

when you get through this soon enough and you will, make the most of your experience and help others alike who come your way.

 

 

 

22 hours ago, calicifier said:

 "learn to love/accept oneself before others can love/accept you" 

thx guys. i totally didnt expect these many replies. 

 

I have seeked pro help, but nth seems to be improving since the past 4-5 yrs, in fact i feel its worse maybe cus i grew older and worry even more stuff idk.

 

sometimes i wish i can get attached and hopefully my partner can help tide me thru and gimme a bigger purpose in life. i know its stupid cus ill get dependent on him, and its not solving the root of the problem uh. but truthfully even if i wanna find a bf, also nobody interested LOL. this circle is to superficial, even i am to a certain extend :(

 

I dunno how to love myself, nor to be comfortable w oneself.

 

I will try to reply to you guys slowly when i have the time. or anyone could slide into my inbox if you have a feel for a greater convo idk. bw and chatroom culture has changed so much i no longer know how it works

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7 hours ago, jubjub said:

 

 

 

 

 

 

thx guys. i totally didnt expect these many replies. 

 

I have seeked pro help, but nth seems to be improving since the past 4-5 yrs, in fact i feel its worse maybe cus i grew older and worry even more stuff idk.

 

sometimes i wish i can get attached and hopefully my partner can help tide me thru and gimme a bigger purpose in life. i know its stupid cus ill get dependent on him, and its not solving the root of the problem uh. but truthfully even if i wanna find a bf, also nobody interested LOL. this circle is to superficial, even i am to a certain extend :(

 

I dunno how to love myself, nor to be comfortable w oneself.

 

I will try to reply to you guys slowly when i have the time. or anyone could slide into my inbox if you have a feel for a greater convo idk. bw and chatroom culture has changed so much i no longer know how it works

What have you been eating? Any medications? 

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Please grow up! five years later you see a totally different picture! If you always compare those who are better than you then surely you would feel lousy.

Think of people who are born with a disfigure face, those who going to die of cancer, I tell you are so much luckier ! 

Lazy people so free, think too much till they go crazy? 

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Loneliness is not a bad thing in and of itself (afterall its the result of the recognition that life is transient and the desire for society's acceptance). What matters more is how one chooses to make use of one's life - the pursuit of knowledge for its sake, extending assistance to others, or a combination of both. What I am saying is that craving for societal acceptance should not be done for its own sake, but for certain worthwhile ends such as improving the lives of others. 

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This is called a downward spiral. Things going around and around in your head and it becomes like a tornado and you can't seem to get out from it. Psychiatrists and psychologists answer your questions with questions because we have the answers within us, sometimes we are unwilling to face the answer or accept the answer. You have the answer. You are the answer. You don't even have to decide what your biggest problem is. You just have to pick one and do something about it. Break out of the downward spiral. You're a smart guy, you are in uni. Do something. Don't just sit in your room and wallow. You already know you have a problem. That's a very important first step. Now take step 2 and do something.  Go out and meet real people. Good luck. 

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TS,

You are in the prime of your life - you have youth and time.

Enjoy it while you can because the only commitment you have now is to complete your studies, actually excel in it.  Life as a student is the BEST, no worries about deadline to complete a task, no gossips from you-know-who, no superiors and bosses to face.

 

Seriously if you find that you don't seem to fit into cliques, don't bother.  You are yourself and you should be living for yourself.  Aside from studies and watching "boring" TV shows, there are so many things you can do by yourself.. It is foolish to spin yourself into a vortex of self-pity.  

 

If you are not handsome enough, exercise -give yourself the body you desire..go work out that sweat.   I'm thinking of exercising in the gym or go for a swim.  You don't have to be good in sports but at the very least, stay fit and occupy your time with such healthy activities.. of course, the bonus is that there are always hunks to ogle at in such sports arenas.


Go to your community club to see whether there are things to do - courses to take (I pick up cooking skills there), volunteering your time for the needys (tuition and outing with older people).. 

 

Remember La Vita e Bella (Life is beautiful) and Dolce far niente (pleasant idleness).  Enjoy this period as the time where you can do whatever you want..

 

 

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I was in similar position when i was in uni. was experiencing depression too. psychologist and counsellor didnt help much, pretty much just pills and advice to go out and socialise more.

 

But I have the same problem... too tired to help myself. It's very hard to explain the degree of tiredness. There is a strong need for outside force/motivation because there is simply no will/strength inside. It is as commented above. A downward spiral. Solutions is as commented above. Though I struggled to explain the extreme lack of will and my inability to help myself. I'm suspecting that you are having the same experience.

 

For me, around that time, my mother had a stroke and almost died. Being the primary carer, I had to force myself to move on. Many years I still experience similar things, but being older now, my world view and life experience give me more tools to handle my own mind.

 

As far as I have experienced, the bad news is, you have to move yourself. Even if you have a buddy or someone beside you, you still have to move yourself. Finding someone like what you hope for is almost impossible. Reality is, in a small gay community, in our current social pressure, everyone is struggling to find their own piece of happiness.

 

The best means of self-help I found is from reading a book "Man's search for meaning" by Victor Frankl

and

logotherapy

 

Life doesn't owe you fulfillment and happiness, it only offers opportunities for meaning and purpose. ie. Your happiness is not guaranteed. You have to find meaning and purpose from the context of your situation. Failing that, you suffer... as you are now. Nobody else can give you the meaning and purpose of your life, as only the meaning and purpose that you give yourself is meaningful.

 

My advise will be to force yourself to ignore most of your problems and focus on something achievable. The simplest will be exercise and getting rid of your moobs. Moobs is genetics, not much can be done. Plastic surgery can be an option, by removing fat tissue in the area. Or simply exercise and do lots of pushups. search for daveywavey on youtube. thats moobs after lots of exercise and pushups. moobs still there, but masqueraded as big chest. You have to accept and work with your own body type.

 

Second. a change in diet will be good. especially when your mind is not functioning well. personally, i avoid going on a "diet diet", it just make me weaker and everything just seems pointless and worse. But I find cutting out sugar and oily foods is great. snacks is a big no no. and some fasting is good to help the mind stay sharp. google "intermittent fasting". These things differ from person to person, do actively seek the right diet.

 

End of day, you need to engage in social activities. My advice is to give yourself a break and not care about social activities. Focus on exercise and diet and studies for 6months to a year. Built up your self-esteem first, then get into social activities. Then through that, you can find opportunities to find someone. Or don't. Basically, I think you got too much on your plate. Tackle the physical side first. Then see what else you want next.

 

Everything I said is same as all who commented above, just a slightly different perspective.

 

Move yourself. Especially if you are in uni now. It's the BEST time. It's really the BEST time to start... before realities of adulthood comes crashing in... Yes I know it's hard to start without someone to pull you up. Do it. It's the BEST time.

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你们这些小鲜肉/小朋友真的活得不耐烦了吗?

你们好好地养君处忧, 无牵挂多你们的生活。。

不要有“林黛玉”的小心眼。。不要多愁善感。。

人生不如意事常八九, 不必太计较。。

 

May I reiterate that your life is GOOD?

You don't have a major crisis and should NOT even bother to  wallop yourself in such misery.  Get out..it is sunny today, go for a swim, parade yourself in the skimpiest trunks allowable, catch a tan or even take a walk in the park, go Botanic Gardens, go MacRitchie's Tree Top Walk, go Gardens by the Bay...breathe... breathe...breathe..don't coop up yourself!

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On 9/12/2017 at 1:19 AM, jubjub said:

im getting so tired w my life. i dun even know how to put a finger to it

 

i feel very alone, not sure if its my inadequacy to socialise and form string bonds, but im sick of feeling unwanted in sch and everywhere else. some ppl say its ok, uni is like that, however these are the people who are comfortable with themselves, and have safety nets outside, be it external cliques, family, or just mentally strong enough to ignore all these. i cant. and im tired. im developing more and more health issues. im fat, im ugly, i have moobs abnormally big for someone else of a similar stats. im tired of trying. psychiatrist and psychologist dont sense my desperation and urgency unless im suicidal, which is insane. the repeated times this has been said to me might be the very reason im suicidal.

im very happy w sch, my getaway is tv, but i havent found anything to be distracted by lately (lull periods in tv schedule), and feeling crappier by the day. almost cried in class tat day. im afraid of being alone because im gay and i have no one, and know i have no one that i can be with till i die because of society. im uncomfortable with myself. my memory has become so bad, i cant catch up, and have no feelings to study thru uni. what is uni? everyone having fun and im just left alone, fomo-ing. social media is a killer. social comparison makes me sick, but i cant help but be stuck to it. nothing is helping. i just want to be loved, by friends, around my age so we know we r gg thru the same stages in life.

i dun drink, smoke, club, i dun wish to do all those just to have frds, str8 gay or bi. but im tiredddd. i need help, nobody is offering me a helping hand. my questions are returned w questions by my therapist. if i knew what i needed i wont be here. my expectations, they may be high, but i havent been taught how to be brought back to reality. whats normal? normal???? i feel so fucking abnormal. if there are legit any kind souls out here, free from egos, and just a genuine personality, pls lend me a helping hand. superficiality, yes i do have it too, but i know where to draw the line.

im

just

tired

alone

and i dun wanna wake up

 

Stay positive and pls look at things outside the box my dear. Life is great if u look at it in a different perspective. It's only u yurself can make the changes to yur own life. Yur happiness and wellbeing are controlled by u. Make changes rite now.

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On 9/16/2017 at 8:01 PM, abang said:

TS,

You are in the prime of your life - you have youth and time.

Enjoy it while you can because the only commitment you have now is to complete your studies, actually excel in it.  Life as a student is the BEST, no worries about deadline to complete a task, no gossips from you-know-who, no superiors and bosses to face.

 

Seriously if you find that you don't seem to fit into cliques, don't bother.  You are yourself and you should be living for yourself.  Aside from studies and watching "boring" TV shows, there are so many things you can do by yourself.. It is foolish to spin yourself into a vortex of self-pity.  

 

If you are not handsome enough, exercise -give yourself the body you desire..go work out that sweat.   I'm thinking of exercising in the gym or go for a swim.  You don't have to be good in sports but at the very least, stay fit and occupy your time with such healthy activities.. of course, the bonus is that there are always hunks to ogle at in such sports arenas.


Go to your community club to see whether there are things to do - courses to take (I pick up cooking skills there), volunteering your time for the needys (tuition and outing with older people).. 

 

Remember La Vita e Bella (Life is beautiful) and Dolce far niente (pleasant idleness).  Enjoy this period as the time where you can do whatever you want..

 

 

to be honest, whenever i see hunks, i get 2 emotions. happy and sad. sad because i know he will never notice me and its a body i wish for but could never get- mannerism included. sometimes i purposely shun away from them cus i dunno how to react to them, and i scared they think im gay and act all weird.

im not rly feminine, but im in no ways manly. how do i change this?

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10 hours ago, JSW said:

I was in similar position when i was in uni. was experiencing depression too. psychologist and counsellor didnt help much, pretty much just pills and advice to go out and socialise more.

 

But I have the same problem... too tired to help myself. It's very hard to explain the degree of tiredness. There is a strong need for outside force/motivation because there is simply no will/strength inside. It is as commented above. A downward spiral. Solutions is as commented above. Though I struggled to explain the extreme lack of will and my inability to help myself. I'm suspecting that you are having the same experience.

 

For me, around that time, my mother had a stroke and almost died. Being the primary carer, I had to force myself to move on. Many years I still experience similar things, but being older now, my world view and life experience give me more tools to handle my own mind.

 

As far as I have experienced, the bad news is, you have to move yourself. Even if you have a buddy or someone beside you, you still have to move yourself. Finding someone like what you hope for is almost impossible. Reality is, in a small gay community, in our current social pressure, everyone is struggling to find their own piece of happiness.

 

The best means of self-help I found is from reading a book "Man's search for meaning" by Victor Frankl

and

logotherapy

 

Life doesn't owe you fulfillment and happiness, it only offers opportunities for meaning and purpose. ie. Your happiness is not guaranteed. You have to find meaning and purpose from the context of your situation. Failing that, you suffer... as you are now. Nobody else can give you the meaning and purpose of your life, as only the meaning and purpose that you give yourself is meaningful.

 

My advise will be to force yourself to ignore most of your problems and focus on something achievable. The simplest will be exercise and getting rid of your moobs. Moobs is genetics, not much can be done. Plastic surgery can be an option, by removing fat tissue in the area. Or simply exercise and do lots of pushups. search for daveywavey on youtube. thats moobs after lots of exercise and pushups. moobs still there, but masqueraded as big chest. You have to accept and work with your own body type.

 

Second. a change in diet will be good. especially when your mind is not functioning well. personally, i avoid going on a "diet diet", it just make me weaker and everything just seems pointless and worse. But I find cutting out sugar and oily foods is great. snacks is a big no no. and some fasting is good to help the mind stay sharp. google "intermittent fasting". These things differ from person to person, do actively seek the right diet.

 

End of day, you need to engage in social activities. My advice is to give yourself a break and not care about social activities. Focus on exercise and diet and studies for 6months to a year. Built up your self-esteem first, then get into social activities. Then through that, you can find opportunities to find someone. Or don't. Basically, I think you got too much on your plate. Tackle the physical side first. Then see what else you want next.

 

Everything I said is same as all who commented above, just a slightly different perspective.

 

Move yourself. Especially if you are in uni now. It's the BEST time. It's really the BEST time to start... before realities of adulthood comes crashing in... Yes I know it's hard to start without someone to pull you up. Do it. It's the BEST time.

this is very, exactly what i feel.

i know innately that only i can pull myself out, but i keep wishing for that miracle to happen.

and you get the feeling, you're so tired, so unmotivated.

sometimes when you gather some energy and strength to try and do something, you get hit by an obstacle

and you break down. because I tried, but why are the odds against me.

 

 

yes, im actually lucky to be alive tbh. but ive also been struck by many unlucky things.

my mood swings has just become so so extreme, im at the brink of tears over every small thing,

and having to go to sch the next day and pretend nth is happening, is just terrible.

 

can you share more in detail about how u got out? i rly do think we are on a similar wavelength now, i haven found someone tat can relate in so much detail

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TS,

I am about to say the harshest words to you but before that, I want to slap you repeatedly.

 

Yes you are the creator of your own problems and instead of making changes to get out of your dire situation, you choose to instead concede the fight.  

 

If everyone think like you, then where is that light at the end of the tunnel?  Re-examine your priorities and starting improving for the better.

 

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What occurs in your mind is inner voices. They are critical of you.

Meditate, and keeping still will help.

Through experience, you will learn to cope with the self-doubting voices.

 

If you think your life is bad, look at me. I am a TS. We have to spend money to correct ourselves using hormones and surgeries.

Our expenditure is enormous.

If you are hardworking enough, you can save up enough money to do liposuction, spend on gym, and build up attractive muscles.

Exercise helps to motivate you and kill stress.

 

You really need to make that move.

Only you can control your own body. Nobody can.

 

Stay chilled. Go to beach and look at the sky, or the sea. They are bigger than us. We are so small.

But yet you have placed so much expectations on yourself.

 

Be patient about achieving. You will get there eventually.

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Go find yourself a man.

 

There is a market for hunk.

There is also a market for chubby ppl.

download "growlr''. 

see if u have any market value.

 

Stop dreaming of being a hunk and wanting to be a hunk.

These "hunk" ppl usually have no life.

They will spend everyday in the gym. Do Abit of exercise, and start to look into the mirror.

And they will feel like the whole world is looking at them, dying to suck their pathetic small cock (bcas cock cannot be trained)

Usually, or mostly, they do not have the looks. THus they need the body to cover their inferiority. 

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On 9/12/2017 at 1:19 AM, jubjub said:

im getting so tired w my life. i dun even know how to put a finger to it

 

i feel very alone, not sure if its my inadequacy to socialise and form string bonds, but im sick of feeling unwanted in sch and everywhere else. some ppl say its ok, uni is like that, however these are the people who are comfortable with themselves, and have safety nets outside, be it external cliques, family, or just mentally strong enough to ignore all these. i cant. and im tired. im developing more and more health issues. im fat, im ugly, i have moobs abnormally big for someone else of a similar stats. im tired of trying. psychiatrist and psychologist dont sense my desperation and urgency unless im suicidal, which is insane. the repeated times this has been said to me might be the very reason im suicidal.

im very happy w sch, my getaway is tv, but i havent found anything to be distracted by lately (lull periods in tv schedule), and feeling crappier by the day. almost cried in class tat day. im afraid of being alone because im gay and i have no one, and know i have no one that i can be with till i die because of society. im uncomfortable with myself. my memory has become so bad, i cant catch up, and have no feelings to study thru uni. what is uni? everyone having fun and im just left alone, fomo-ing. social media is a killer. social comparison makes me sick, but i cant help but be stuck to it. nothing is helping. i just want to be loved, by friends, around my age so we know we r gg thru the same stages in life.

i dun drink, smoke, club, i dun wish to do all those just to have frds, str8 gay or bi. but im tiredddd. i need help, nobody is offering me a helping hand. my questions are returned w questions by my therapist. if i knew what i needed i wont be here. my expectations, they may be high, but i havent been taught how to be brought back to reality. whats normal? normal???? i feel so fucking abnormal. if there are legit any kind souls out here, free from egos, and just a genuine personality, pls lend me a helping hand. superficiality, yes i do have it too, but i know where to draw the line.

im

just

tired

alone

and i dun wanna wake up

 

By the phase of university, a good portion would have had long term cliques outside of university and they may not place the same strong emphasis on forging lasting friendship. Being alone isn't a sin or any form of drawback, being able to be alone and independent is good for a relationship. U wouldn't want to suffocate your partner or stress your partner, it will strain the relationship.


Negativity spirals downwards, negativity breeds negativity. Be more positive, and don't overthink stuff and don't care too much about stuff. Give less fuck, feel fucked less. Focus on what is needed, what is important, what is directly around you. Being too negative also pushes people away.


Social Media isn't a good entertaining channel especially when u are feeling down, you will always be comparing yourself to a lot of online persona that may not accurately depict their true daily life. Don't go following a bunch of "influencers" or "hot" "popular" AJs. Keep your follow list to people whom u actually care about and whom actually cares about you. 

Attraction can be done through intellect, charisma, humor, aesthetics etc. It doesn't just have to be through aesthetics. Take the time and space to improve on your vibe, be more positive, be more zen. Don't be too affected by how others are living and what they were equipped with. 

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