Popular Post InMy40s Posted January 5, 2018 Popular Post Report Share Posted January 5, 2018 I yearn for you my hubby, but can never relive again It’s been almost a year since you’re gone To a place beyond my reach I was by your side the morning you left Gently patting your chest as your breathing slowly cease The warmth of your body fades, and I tightly held your hand But it doesn’t slow you, from slipping off my grip I was told to remove your necklace, I gently held up your head It was our last moment so close together So close our forehead almost touched A moment I will yearn forever but can never relive again the week before you left me, we know the day is near I search for all the pictures, of our happy days together We toured and dined and travel Enjoying each moment as a couple Hidden behind the oxygen mask, your smile was still so clear As you reach out for your hand phone and showed me a picture folder My name is on the folder, inside with all my pictures All the photos that I’ve showed you, have always been with you I smile at you and we remembered, all the great memories that we share It was a bitter-sweet moment, one which brought me tears A moment I will yearn forever But can never relive again Even though you have left me, but I see you everywhere In malls, at gym, on buses, or the prata shop down the corner It was our last outing together where we shared a prata and tea We craved for some durian and bought a few packs home While we ate the durians heartily, it suddenly dawn on me That six years ago when we first got together We also feasted on durian, bought from the same old place while I looked at you intently, the words escaped my mouth “we shall meet again, I am sure” You smiled reassuringly, agreeing to what I said This moment I yearn forever, But can never relive again I remember that trip to KL When you coughed out blood beside me My heart pains, cried and shattered And I trembled with fear of loss That night you went for massage, something you always love After your massage finish, I went to walk you back It’s a short walk but I’m just happy, to feel your presence beside me This moment I yearn forever, But can never relive again I remember our last kiss together, when I was at your house You were stretching your arms in pain And I ease your pain by massaging it At that moment it just happen I planted a kiss on you A moment I will yearn forever But can never relive again. Two weeks later that morning, I was the first to reach You had already stopped breathing And your pulse was turning weak I know the time has come For me to say my last goodbye I planted my final kiss on your cheek And whispered in your ears Thank you for the six years Of love and care and joy I love you very deeply I really do, my dear hubby glowingember, Steve5380, barocco80 and 3 others 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
doncoin Posted January 5, 2018 Report Share Posted January 5, 2018 Sorry to hear what happened. Treasure the memories you have together. When the time is right, open your heart again. Love. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Muffin Posted January 5, 2018 Report Share Posted January 5, 2018 We all should appreciate what we have now.. I'm sorry for the lost.. please be strong.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DrKartist Posted January 5, 2018 Report Share Posted January 5, 2018 I am sorry for your loss. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
geizershow Posted January 5, 2018 Report Share Posted January 5, 2018 I cannot imagine the pain of losing a spouse Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jocker Posted January 5, 2018 Report Share Posted January 5, 2018 (edited) Truly sad, hope you pick urself up again soon. Edited January 5, 2018 by jocker Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zackling Posted January 5, 2018 Report Share Posted January 5, 2018 (edited) i knew how u felt.. i lost my first love back in 1995, nov 22nd. a day i turn my life away from academic to see her off. we never really express our love for each other but she wrote abt me in her journal & that's how her family found out abt us. Rain or shine i piggybacked her home as she was in great pain due to the chemo & she was fighting an uphill fight against leukemia. All i can think about her it's the memories she left embedded in me. And despite the facts that though i am married now, i still occasionally go to her final resting place to "visit" her. place her favourite flower, telling her how i have been, etc.. rain or shine, every year w/o fail, I am always there to see her. Edited January 11, 2018 by Zackling Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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silverguy Posted January 6, 2018 Report Share Posted January 6, 2018 Sorry to hear what you are feeling now. I won’t know how to cope when the Day comes for me. I always pray that if God is willing, please take the both of us together Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest 濕紙巾 Posted January 10, 2018 Report Share Posted January 10, 2018 好好活着，就是你对他的爱的證明。 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
yoo_ris Posted January 10, 2018 Report Share Posted January 10, 2018 I'm terribly sorry for your loss. It may not be easy to relieve the pain, but I'm sure your hubby would love to see you continue your life with the will to live on. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Steve5380 Posted January 11, 2018 Report Share Posted January 11, 2018 We suffer the separation, but we don't know what is beyond it. No one knows what is on the other side. We don't need to be religious to speculate about it. Maybe your hubby is now in a better place and waits for you to join him one day. It makes sense to think that in the meantime he is looking out for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest 125Samuel ajunied av2 Posted January 12, 2018 Report Share Posted January 12, 2018 It was really strange. I have this kind of feeling towards someone whom I did not even start a date. I could not find my words to describe how that admiration of mine didnt ripe fruitfully. But each day when crosses each other path, the glance was so feel of intimacy. It was like a magnetic field that was break into two, from an unseen force of energy. It was devastating yet deluded, Self Consoling and persistence. Hoping to have more chances and possibility the next, next and next following day. Eventually, I do notice the liking becomes a bit more and it increases a day by day for up to a year. After I left the place, I gain a self consciousnesses of realising that it was more of a torture, than picture a beautiful image that I can cook, wash his undies and shampooing in tubs with him. Imagining the sweet things that bring out the smile in me, when I was there for that moment. Worsely, I might even have let him suspect that I am a gay. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Samuel 125ajunied av2 Posted January 12, 2018 Report Share Posted January 12, 2018 What I am trying to say is sometimes when one know too much of another. It will yearn for more to understand even more. And when it blow out in the mind that one could not take it anymore. Somehow, somewhere and somewhat it will self realised that it was a dream long gone. I am the nurse! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest 袁世凯 Posted January 12, 2018 Report Share Posted January 12, 2018 On 1/6/2018 at 2:43 AM, Zackling said: i knew how u felt.. i lost my first love back in 1995, nov 22nd. a day i turn my life away from academic to see her off. we never really express our love for each other but she wrote abt me in her journal & that's how her family found out abt us. Rain or shine i piggybacked her home as she was in great pain due to the chemo & she was fighting an uphill fight against leukemia. All i can think about her it's the memories she left embedded in me. And despite the facts that though i am married now, i still occasionally go to her final resting place to "visit" her. place her favourite flower, telling her how i have been, etc.. rain or shine, every year w/o fail, I am always there to see her. I was like you too. My girlfriend waited for me before & after NS. Many years relationship. My girlfriend had same illness and it was discovered late. I was very-very-very depressed when my girlfriend died in SGH after admitting for 2 days. I wanted to commit suicide at one time and I bought heavy insurance. Her sudden death shocked me. I cried and cried. Locked myself in the room for 1-2years. After that, I went backpacking from Singapore to Russia by bus and train. 慢慢地 看开。 Till today, I don't have sex with men or women. Some BW members met me but they do not know I have a sad past. I go to her resting place at 佛缘林 (near to ITE College East) once in a blue moon. I will still break-down when I see her tablet. Believe me or not, I am still crying when I typing this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jocker Posted January 13, 2018 Report Share Posted January 13, 2018 On 12 January, 2018 at 5:52 PM, Guest 袁世凯 said: I was like you too. My girlfriend waited for me before & after NS. Many years relationship. My girlfriend had same illness and it was discovered late. I was very-very-very depressed when my girlfriend died in SGH after admitting for 2 days. I wanted to commit suicide at one time and I bought heavy insurance. Her sudden death shocked me. I cried and cried. Locked myself in the room for 1-2years. After that, I went backpacking from Singapore to Russia by bus and train. 慢慢地 看开。 Till today, I don't have sex with men or women. Some BW members met me but they do not know I have a sad past. I go to her resting place at 佛缘林 (near to ITE College East) once in a blue moon. I will still break-down when I see her tablet. Believe me or not, I am still crying when I typing this. hugz bro Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest DA daddy Posted January 13, 2018 Report Share Posted January 13, 2018 Love is too strong for a human to bond. Taking care is more valuable than what a love can compromise. Dwelling it with out of choice mindset, I rather make a right choice to leave and live freely. Make a wise choice, and is a right thing to do. Crossing an unstable and loose string of a bridge is unavoidable in nature, gripping must be tight as that is the only way. There is no high class or nicely fit thing in life when growing old or facing the nature. Sadden Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
InBishan Posted January 13, 2018 Report Share Posted January 13, 2018 On 12/01/2018 at 5:52 PM, Guest 袁世凯 said: I was like you too. My girlfriend waited for me before & after NS. Many years relationship. My girlfriend had same illness and it was discovered late. I was very-very-very depressed when my girlfriend died in SGH after admitting for 2 days. I wanted to commit suicide at one time and I bought heavy insurance. Her sudden death shocked me. I cried and cried. Locked myself in the room for 1-2years. After that, I went backpacking from Singapore to Russia by bus and train. 慢慢地 看开。 Till today, I don't have sex with men or women. Some BW members met me but they do not know I have a sad past. I go to her resting place at 佛缘林 (near to ITE College East) once in a blue moon. I will still break-down when I see her tablet. Believe me or not, I am still crying when I typing this. Brother I feel for you. Hope to meet you one day. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chubbychubby Posted February 2, 2018 Report Share Posted February 2, 2018 Sorry to hear that. Take care and stay strong.Hugs Hugs. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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