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Hi all, im new here, kinda lost my way. i just need to know what I am. i love woman, for the past years of my life, till now. But lately, I tend to fantasize on mutual bj with guys. Is it normal? Would greatly appreciate your views on this.

Hi. So recently, I have met my Friend-with-Benefit (fwb) guy last weekend. We've actually met together for the past 4 times for the past year. We knew that we're only strictly just friends (with benefits), but I can't accept the fact that he's my type of guy. His physique, his attitude, his down-to-earth character, his professionalism, his humour; almost everything caught my eye of him. I kept telling to myself to not fall in love with him (he knew I used to like him on the first meet), but somehow everytime we met, I fell for him deep every single time. I have my own bestfriends, AJs, and others, but none of them treat me as nice as him. Each time we met, he treat me like his own. Not like a friend, not like a bestfriend, but like his boyfriend. He tried his best to make me happy by digging up jokes that specifically make me laugh; fed me in public although I told him not to; and just texted me while on the way to meet him. Sex aside, we cuddled so much till I almost forgot he's only my fwb. It's been 4 days since I've met him and I still couldn't forget about him, since he's busy all the time and wouldn't want to reply my texts after we met. He has an almost 24h schedule which consists of his work and his practice for his upcoming competition. Could anyone suggest me any ways to forget about him? I kinda regretted having an fwb in the first place, most importantly because I fell for him and the friendzone feels are there. P.S: On the last few hours after the sleepover 4 days ago, after lunch, I noticed he was wearing a ring on his fourth finger on his left hand. I'm worried that he might be already married and I'm still lingering around with a married man, which is my fwb. Honestly, I don't like to disrupt people's relationship if I had known that earlier. I've never seen him wear that ring for the past outings. It was a silver ring.