When Did You know you were gay + When did you realize you were attracted to guys? (compiled)

[Guest guest]

30 minutes ago, Dart said:

12 is the average age. Perhaps some boys like yourself reach puberty earlier.

But that time i do not know that i am gay and what is gay. Now i looked back then i realised i tend to look at boys, esp upper primary boys when i was only lower primary. Then it continue to my secondary and now i looked back i realised i never have impression that i have looked at any girls before, all are guys. No sexually thoughts back then, but i just simply like to look at those type of guys that attracted me.

[Guest Hmmm]

11 minutes ago, Guest guest said:

But that time i do not know that i am gay and what is gay. Now i looked back then i realised i tend to look at boys, esp upper primary boys when i was only lower primary. Then it continue to my secondary and now i looked back i realised i never have impression that i have looked at any girls before, all are guys. No sexually thoughts back then, but i just simply like to look at those type of guys that attracted me.

What are you ‘looking’ for? Brothers?

[Dart]

18 minutes ago, Guest guest said:

But that time i do not know that i am gay and what is gay. Now i looked back then i realised i tend to look at boys, esp upper primary boys when i was only lower primary. Then it continue to my secondary and now i looked back i realised i never have impression that i have looked at any girls before, all are guys. No sexually thoughts back then, but i just simply like to look at those type of guys that attracted me.

Our sexual thoughts develop over time. At that tender age, it's just attraction cum curiosity.

[Guest guest]

13 hours ago, Guest Hmmm said:

What are you ‘looking’ for? Brothers?

Looking at their face and some body.

[Guest guest]

13 hours ago, Dart said:

Our sexual thoughts develop over time. At that tender age, it's just attraction cum curiosity.

Correct, just attraction and curiously. Only  sexual thought starts to develop later stage whenever i see a guy which attracted me, my thought is to jerk him off and see him cum. Haha.

[Guest Guest]

Interesting topic - now I wonder how the army or psychiatrist test a recruit / patient to confirm that he is gay?

[Pubic01]

On 12/28/2020 at 2:58 PM, Guest Guest said:

Interesting topic - now I wonder how the army or psychiatrist test a recruit / patient to confirm that he is gay?

Having a really hot army psychiatrist will most certainly do the trick + bulge detector 

[fab]

On 12/28/2020 at 2:58 PM, Guest Guest said:

Interesting topic - now I wonder how the army or psychiatrist test a recruit / patient to confirm that he is gay?

 

Army mos  will be most glad if all entlistees declare themselves. 

 

Save them all the work.

[Guest guest]

On 12/28/2020 at 2:58 PM, Guest Guest said:

Interesting topic - now I wonder how the army or psychiatrist test a recruit / patient to confirm that he is gay?

So how would army check and confirm when a recruit declared that he is gay?

[repressednerd]

When I haven't cummed for a day or two, I can watch straight porn. As the days go by, I enjoy watching gay porn more. By week 1, I only enjoy gay porn that features rough sex.

 

And by week 2, if I haven't watched porn, I need to touch men to fulfill my lust. Even if there's a pretty woman with an average guy I see, my mind tells me to go for the guy instead.

 

 

[Guest Guest]

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[Guest Guest]

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[fetish72]

My cock will raging very hard when I see naked men or see muscular hunk  get fuck compare to see a woman get fuck by  her man.

[Guest Dustin]

October 22, 1981. My seatmate in the class was so cute. Since then I like same sex.

[kimlo777]

At a pretty young age (probably 5 or thereabouts), I knew I was different.  Lived in a kampong in Johor where all the men took their baths in the communal bathroom.  It was just one large square room with pipes running along one long wall.  All the guys just stripped naked, squatted along the wall and scooped water from a trench and washed themselves.  Often they will get semi-erection while washing their genitals, a few brave ones even stroke their cocks until they are erect then moved into the toilet to masturbate which didn't offer much privacy either.  the cubicles wall were like 4 ft high with a small wooden door that covered only the top 2/3 part of the doorway.  I was too short to peep over the door so I would squat down and peep through the door and watch them masturbating.  I enjoyed looking at all the naked guys taking their bath and got really excited watching them masturbating.  Actually a few married men (and they were the really the open-minded ones) would just masturbate openly for all to watch.  Sometimes the men will play games like see who cum the fastest or last the longest etc.  I never fail to stand and watch.  Love those kampong days.

[Guest - BLUE]

This isn't the "first" realisation for me, but when I was about 10-12 years old, I was already at the old national library at Stamford Road peeping below the partitions of the squat type toilets. I don't even think I was sexually aroused by this, but there was just this natural curiosity to watch men's privates.

[fab]

When I was 5, I had a crush at a 7 yo boy neighbor. 

[Guest Guest]

During e age of kindergarten to pri sch, me n my elder bro always shower together n my father sometimes shower we us too. I dun noe y but I luv e feeling my father shower with us. 

Then again I somehow luv watching men showering naked in e open shower at BV pool when I m in Pri Sch.

During upper pri (1988) when in e shower, my bro mention abt body check up n nurse checking of kuku bird in e sch then my father told us we must wash our kuku bird to stay clean. He told us we must pull back our foreskin to wash. He show us how to do it by pulling back his long foreskin. I saw his big kuku bird head popping out fr his foreskin n I luv watching it. 

Then I remember 1 weekend morning my mother call home n ask me to go to her bedroom drawer to pick up her wallet n bring down to e market for her. I opened her bedroom door n saw my father sleeping on e bed totally in nude snoring. Tho he was covered with blanket but his private part was exposed n his kuku bird was big n hard with many visible veins. I was sec 1 or 2 then n I had an erection when seeing his big hard kuku bird. Fr tere I confirmed I m gay. 

 

[HC-B]

Staring opportunistically at other primary school boy classmates’ open shorts and into and at their exposed crotches, groins and tents — and getting hot and bothered and not knowing why.

 

Making several attempts, as a primary school boy, at walking past a neighbour’s flat and stealing gratuitous glances whenever their young adult son, who was always barebodied, well toned with lean muscles and a noticeable six pack under a deep rich tan and in turn me on dark curved shorts, was lying down sideways on the floor watching TV with his groin fully exposing his glowing white underwear cupping his cock and balls. And wondering what it would have been like to touch or even lie down next to him.

 

Going through the NS motions and waiting to finish up the 2.5 years of active duty in the midst of many men — and strangely not even turned on or aroused by and even tempted by any of their half naked or fully naked bodies, but also finally connecting with fellow gay men who became my initial first gay buddies. We were platonic and our friendships lasted for years until I ended them, but they helped to inform my sense of self-identity and augment who I was and am and will be.

[kimlo777]

On 3/30/2022 at 12:10 PM, Guest - BLUE said:

This isn't the "first" realisation for me, but when I was about 10-12 years old, I was already at the old national library at Stamford Road peeping below the partitions of the squat type toilets. I don't even think I was sexually aroused by this, but there was just this natural curiosity to watch men's privates.

hey i was there too... used to sit in the centre stall of level 3 toilet and look through the peepholes drilled into the wooden partition walls.  spent many enjoyable hours peeping at guys peeing and some will get erect and masturbate after reading all those erotic writings on the wall.

[Guest Guest]

When my first wet dream was a naked hunk, it was my first cum too

[Guest Nobody]

I was so attracted to my lower secondary school Geography teacher, not handsome but I just like him; bespectacled, decently dressed in neat shirt and pants, the way he spoke. I fantasized getting intimate with him, although I didn’t really know what sex was at that young age. 

At that time, I was also infactuated with my classmate, who sat just in front of me. He was a charming lad, an active athlete and did reasonably well academically, well liked by many girls. He would always turn around and while chatting he would play with my fingers where my hands rest on the table, I just love that feeling. 
 

I began to feel what was “wrong” with me having such affections towards the same gender. I even masturbated recalling these nice sightings and feelings. Those likings never stopped and instead manifested till who I am today. 

 

 

 

[Guest Try and see]

On 12/28/2020 at 2:58 PM, Guest Guest said:

Interesting topic - now I wonder how the army or psychiatrist test a recruit / patient to confirm that he is gay?

 

I don't think they will "test" anything.

If an enlistee says that he is, I believe they will just take his word for it.

[Guest Try and see]

I experienced a lot of what you guys went through!

 

Growing up in the 80s, I was always attracted to male TV characters, male singers, male celebs (both local and Hollywood), male athletes, male classmates, male school teachers, etc.

It's not that I wanted to be like them, but more like I wanted to be close and intimate with them. I didn't know anything about sex then, so it was more like I fantasised spending time with them, etc.

 

Like many of you, back then, I didn't know that there was a label for guys like us. I thought it was just a phase.

 

So it went on and on and as I reached puberty, the thoughts became more sexual and erotic.

 

Because there was no internet back then during my teens, I would often look through shopping catalogues, newspapers and 8-Days magazine issues for pictures of guys in their swimming trunks or underwear, and masturbate when I was alone at home. I did not dare to retain those pictures, however, as I did not have my own room back then, and my cupboard and drawers could not be locked.

 

[Guest Try and see]

On 3/31/2022 at 2:00 PM, Guest Nobody said:

I was so attracted to my lower secondary school Geography teacher, not handsome but I just like him; bespectacled, decently dressed in neat shirt and pants, the way he spoke. I fantasized getting intimate with him, although I didn’t really know what sex was at that young age. 

At that time, I was also infactuated with my classmate, who sat just in front of me. He was a charming lad, an active athlete and did reasonably well academically, well liked by many girls. He would always turn around and while chatting he would play with my fingers where my hands rest on the table, I just love that feeling. 
 

I began to feel what was “wrong” with me having such affections towards the same gender. I even masturbated recalling these nice sightings and feelings. Those likings never stopped and instead manifested till who I am today. 

 

You write very well! Always have a thing for guys who can express themselves properly!

 

Also, I think that athletic boy had a thing for you 😍

 

I had a sec 2 Geography teacher who was a bit like the one you had. He wasn't gorgeous or hunky; more like a Clark Kent type of guy - neat, bespectacled, slightly nerdy. Because he wore short-sleeved shirts to school, I remember getting quite excited and aroused everytime he lifted up his arms and exposed his underarm hair. At that time, I was still hairless, so that aspect of male development fascinated me and turned me on!

 

Also had two rather hot male PE teachers in school whom I would always try to peek at (their underwear, I mean, via their shorts) whenever they sat down in front of the class. I would also often fantasise these two PE teachers engaging in sex acts with each other!  😈

 

I remember one time in Sec 3, one of the hot PE teachers was taking my class. We were doing pull-ups, and as my friend was attempting to do his pull-up, his body rocked back and forth on the pull-up bar, and his feet somehow collided with that PE teacher's crotch!

That hot PE teacher immediately bent forward slightly, clutched his crotch in pain, and said:

 

"Owww, wait I can't have babies next time."

 

That to me was a huge turn on, to see such a hot hunky guy experiencing pain in his genitals, and expressing anxiety over his reproductive ability (he was newly married at that time)!