Story: Tim's Tale

[Guest Timtale]

Chapter 01 - My First Singapore's Night Life

 

"So you're coming right?". It's Saturday night and here's Kevin, my flatmate were at my door just wrapped in his towel. His hair still wet and dripping.

"You promised that you will give it a try," Kevin trying to convince me. "Don't fly my kite now bro."

I pretend that I give it some thought just to see his face before I gave in. "Okay, okay! I'll go with you. But let me shower first, kay?"

"Awesome man! I promise you we will have a good time bro!" His face lightened up and giving me a high five. "Be ready and we gotta go soon!"

I slap his hand and make my way to the shower, Getting ready to accompany him to the club. He has been talking me into going with him to try out the nightlife in Singapore for the first time. I know what he had in mind was to find available chicks that we can bring to hotel to have sex. I know I'm a little bit curious myself and wanted to give it a try.

Now, don't get me wrong. You may think it's weird that at my age, 19 this year, I haven't had any night life or sex with girls and all. Back at my hometown in Jakarta, I come from a catholic background. And I so used to be a good mommy's boy and never try anything funny without her approval. So here I am now about to embark on adventure that will change the course of my life time forever.

While I was drying my hair, Kevin entered my room and stood by the door waiting for me to get dressed. He already dressed neatly in a dark shirt and black jeans. He's watching me put on my boxer, my jeans and a shirt while keep talking nonstop about how awesome the night will be for me.

"Wait aren't you gonna dry your hair first before you apply your gel or something?" He ask curiously.

"Nah, I will let it dry naturally, like I always do." And I dip my finger to my gel and give it a few stroke over my hair without looking at the mirror. "Done."

Kevin eyes wide open. "What? How can you do that?" I look at him questioningly before he continue. "That thing you do with your hair."

I shrugged, "I don't get what you mean bro."

He use both his hand to gesture up and down on me, like something people do when describing something tall in front of them. Funny though cause I'm indeed towering high above him with my height.

"That.. Thing you do to your hair. And your collar... And your sleeves." Kevin seems to have a jealous tone on his voice now. "I mean, when I did that to my hair, I just look messy. And what you did to the collar, just leave it hanging like that without buttoning up. You look.. Damn it bro. I have to say u were born to be a fashion model or something!"

I chuckled at his comment and shrugged at the sametime. "What can I do? I like it this way."

"Exactly! That's what I mean!" Said Kevin exasperatedly. "When I did that to myself, I look like a joke. But you bro, you look just like out of some.. whatever fashion magazine. U know what I mean." Kevin look annoyed and jealous at the same time but he seem to be genuine with his words. Well, I think Kevin just being Kevin. He is 4-5 years older than me and working in a marketing. Some banking investment I think, so I know he has a way with his words. He likes to flatter people.

To be honest, I never thought about myself that way. And I never see myself as a model before that. I'm just me. I know I'm tall above my friends since I was 14, but back then I was just a tall skinny kid. I just keep getting hungry and keep eating and suddenly I was high above my Dad and brother. I hated myself to be so skinny and tall until I started to use my brother's gym equipment and gained some muscles. I like myself being packed with muscle and I like to feel strong and confident instead of being called scrawny pines.

I just told Kevin that my last girlfriend at high school was the one who gave me tips and taught me some sense in fashion. I used to wear an oversized shirt and pants because I just keep growing and growing and my Mom mentioned how tired she has to throw away all my smaller clothes every month. My ex-gf Linda taught me to wear a fit size pants and shirt and suddenly I look young and doesn't look like my Dad.

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Anyway, we took a cab to Clarke Quay, and Kevin look happy and keep blabbering about how to score with chicks. I know he's been waiting to had some action. Me too was bored just getting some action with my hands all the time. I know, I'm a horny teenager alrite.

After a long queue and paid our entrance tickets, we stepped into the dim light where the music are. At first I feel kinda dizzy looking at the blinking lights and thought maybe this wasn't a good idea. Kevin assured me it was okay, and that I will get used to it. He walked with me to the bar area and ordered drink.

"Remember what I said on the cab bro," Kevin passed me the vodka coke and I sip my first alcoholic drink. It's stung but It doesn't taste too bad. "Keep your eye contact. And when she look away, keep staring. When she look again, flash your killer smile. If she smile back, nudge me okay? That's our prey!" Kevin tap my back and sip his drink. "Start looking."

I try to adjust myself in the dim light despite my dizziness. And slowly I start to get an overall view of the club. I know what I have to look for. A group of chicks not more than two or three. Anything more than that usually is harder to bring home. Either they just there at club to celebrate friends birthday, but basically is harder for me and Kevin to join in the big group and suddenly bring the girl out to leave her friends. Kevin keep repeated the strategy just now at the cab, he's been doing this all the time. So, find two girls group. Three is a gamble. I make a mental note.

No such luck.

We finished our drink and move on to the next bar. Maybe we will get better luck at the next. I noticed some glance from the girls when we passed by, and some from the boys too. But those are the big group. Ignore them. Kevin passed me my second glass and I just hold it with me. I feel a little tipsy already. He laugh and understand that I am a newbie. He doesn't want me to vomit and ruin my night. "It's okay. Tonight is not about getting you drunk my friend. Tonight, is about us. Our dicks need some action!" Kevin chuckled at his own joke.

Time passed a little over midnight and crowd started to filling the dance stage. Kevin nudge me and nod his head toward his right. "2 o'clock, girl with the blazer. My type." I glance and flash my smile toward the direction. I saw two girls giggling and I raise my glass. They follow suit, take a sip and giggling again.

"Damn! That is fast!" Kevin staring at the girls. "I knew you bring luck bro! Keep staring at them and don't forget to smile."

The girls talking to each other while keep stealing glances towards us.

"Okay so far so good, keep your eyes on them say something to me bro!"

"Say what?" I said. While keep my sight and smile to the girls.

"Thats it! Sweet! Come on stud!" Kevin finished his glass and nudge me. "Let's go to them!"

We approach the girls and Kevin work on his charm. I let him take the lead. He is a very confident young man and have an aura of leadership in him. He introduced himself and me to the girls. The girl named Mel is the most pretty, and she's the one that Kevin says his type. The other girl named Gina isn't really my type. But she stand the closest to me so I talk to her instead just to be polite, while Kevin launch his charm at Mel.

I admit Kevin really know how to smooth talk with girls and joke and all. While I'm just being a bit shy and just carry on conversation. Gina keep talking and asking me questions and it makes her thirsty. So she going to the bar to order more drinks and being a gentleman I offer to escort her because she walk funny, not sure if it's real or just faking it. She hold my hand tightly and while I pay for the drinks, I feel she lean forward and I can feel her boobs on my arm.

"Are you alright?" I ask caringly. Gosh, remembering that scene now, I was so naive I know. Gina giggle and squeeze my arm muscle.

"So he is playing smart and chatty while you're playing quiet and act sweet eh, mister macho man?" Gina lean forward and giggle. I think she is really drunk.

"Come on, I wanna dance!" She finished the drink while grabing my hand. I thought we will go back to Kevin and Mel but instead, she bring me toward another door that leads to the connecting club which packed with younger crowds. I like the music better here, and the crowd is more like teenager.

We make ourselves to the corner and there we danced to beat. I feel tipsy but I feel the dizziness gone when I shake my head to the beat. Gina even acting more drunk than ever and make me holding her tighter towards me.

It seems like she's trying to pull my head to see my face closer. Or so I thought.

"Dammit, why you are so tall" she murmur. She grab my hand and pulled me towards the corner where she climb on some mini bench and threw her arm around me. Then she kiss me. No. More like, she attack my lip. The way her tongues invade my mouth make my legs jelly. I grab her tight and feel her boobs pressed hard on my chest. I don't remember how long we make out and I feel her hand squeezing my erection. Hell, I just so turned on and I squeeze her boobs. I feel her hands loosen my belt and then she put her hands inside my underwear.

Yes. She grab my erection right there. At the club.

She let go the lips to catch her breath and I see her eyes widen. I smile and she kiss me again and continue to playing with my dick.

We continue making out and I forgot how long the times flies. I remember Kevin and our plan to bring the girls to the hotel. So when we're catching our breath I reminded Gina we need to look for our friends. She whine but agree to go back to our friends. We make our way back through the busy crowds and find our friends still chit chatting at the table.

Gina whisper something to Mel and together they excuse themselves to the washroom. While I finally took a seat and grab Kevin's glass. "Are you alrite bro? You having fun?"

"Oh boy, you have no idea." I drink from his glass suddenly feeling thirsty. "Does it always like this at club?"

"What?" Kevin lean forward to me, and talk loudly like what people usually do at club. "What are you talking about?"

I finished the drink, catch my breath then explain to Kevin what just happen at the next door club.

"You lucky son of bitch!" Kevin laugh hysterically. "You kidding! No way! Dammit! I don't believe it!" Kevin cursing and laughing at the same time. I wonder if he's drunk too. Never seen him laugh like this. "That's never even happen to me man! You really something!"

I just smirk and laugh together with him. He slap high five with me. "Thats my man! Thats my boy!"

"Oh my God! She grab your bird! This is so funny man. Tangkap burung! Sooo funny!" Kevin is a malaysian. Thats why he understand some malay slank and since then, whenever he retell this story to his friend he always refer me as kena tangkap burung. Catch by the bird. Something like that.

I ask him how about him and Mel, does he make any progress. And Kevin shook his head. Nothing as exciting as I had, they just have fun chit chatting and they didn't wanna move to dance floor afraid me and Gina can't find them back.

The girls back from the washroom and they decided they had enough of drink and pull us to the dance floor. Kevin wink at me, it's a good sign he said.

True enough the girls were all over us. They must be really drunk coz they both grind their nice assess to our groin. And of course our hands were all over them. Its so clear that they both wanted us. I thought. Until Kevin pull me to the side and said it's our turn to go the washroom.

"Bro it's not good!"

"Huh? What do you mean?"

"The girls." Kevin gestured. "They both into you. Not me!" I must be making a puzzled look so Kevin explain, "They both flirt with you bro. Grind their asses to you, but not to me. I can tell. We need another plan."

Initially Kevin wanted one girl for each of us, and we both will get two hotel rooms. But he really smitten by Mel and he really can't let the possibility of him not bringing her back. So Kevin plan is, for us to rent a room with king size bed where four of us can cram together and maybe have some little orgy.

To be truth, I'm not feeling comfortable with the idea. It's my first sex adventure in Singapore and here my buddy flatmate already think something nuts. I know we seen each other naked back at the house without problem but I don't think I can see Kevin all naked and erect in front of me. I'm afraid I will be laughing instead. Remember my catholic upbringing? This was too much.

Kevin pleaded that he will owe me big favor. He promise he try not to see my junk and all, and we keep our eyes to the girls only. I giving to the plead, besides I'm horny as hell. My dick think ahead of my brain.

End of Chapter one.

[Guest Timtale]

Chapter 02 - My first sex

 

Back to the girls, we told them that we’re going back to our hotel and see if they wanna join us. Of course it was Kevin’s idea to have me say it. I’ll have better chance, he says.

Gina & Mel whispering to each other but in the end they both agreed to join us. I guess they both really drunk. Coz at the back seat of the taxi their hands were all over chest, abs and my dick. Gina pull my face and we kissed and then she let me kiss Mel as well. I was like so high. They both makes my erection so hurt in my jeans.

Kevin ask us to wait in the cab while he register the room at some 4 star hotel. His treat. And soon we were inside the room with the big king size bed.

Once we close the door both girls were pushing me to the bed and kissing me all over. They seem ignorant to Kevin at all. I give him a look, worry if he feel left out but I saw him grin from ear to ear. He can't believe his luck. If he feels jealous he didn't show it. Kevin is mature and always so positive, that's why I like hanging out with him. He helps the girls to loosen their shoes and stockings n all, while they busy unbuttoning my shirt n jeans.

The girls excuse themselves to the bathroom and ask us to wait. "Don't make us wait too long!" Kevin shouted. And Gina blow him a kiss and wink.

Kevin and I sit down on the bed and we both grin until our face hurt.

Quickly Kevin loosen his shirt, shoes, and jeans. And I follow suit. This is really happening. I can't believe it. My virginity will gone soon in an epic four-way.

Kevin put down the supplies on the bedside table, condoms and lube. And turn on the TV then looking at me before he pull down his underwear and kick it aside.

"My dick hurts I can't wait any longer. Sorry bro" He ask me to pass him the bottle of lube and soon he started to jerk off. I agree and soon we both jerk off while waiting for the girls to come out. I no longer care about Kevin promise about we not see each other junk. There's no way we won't see each other in this situation. His is not the first erect dick I see anyway. Back then when I was little I saw my big bro jerk off in front of me while we showered. No biggie. But I notice that I look curiously to Kevin's junk and see although he is much shorter than me, his cock is quite decent size. For his height it look quite big and thick. First time in my life I think I really pay attention to another guys body in front of me, and notice he is not exactly in bad shape. He's work out obviously and it shows. Its just that he is short. But without all those clothes, he look alright to me. Manly man.

The girls came out looking fresh and beautiful and sexy. "Wow, You guys are hot! Look at those abs!" Gina comment and give a head jerk towards Mel. "Wanna see something hot here?" They saw us jerking and purposely seduce us undressing each other bra and panties. Man. What a torture. I groan while Kevin whistling.

"You want some more?" Gina tease. Her hands is on top of Mel's boobs and give it a squeeze. Mel chuckle. Damn, she's pretty. "If you want to see more, you need to do something though."

"Anything for you babe." Kevin commented.

"Not to me." Gina lowered her face towards Mel's boob. Ready to lick her nipple. "Do to him then I'm gonna do her."

"Huh?!" We both look at each other. "We're both straight you know." I said quickly without thinking.

"Of course you both are, stud!" Said Gina impatiently. "Come on, we're just want to have a little fun here! Are you game or not?"

For a while we both looking at each other, don't know what to do. "Don't ask me bro. It's your night." Kevin grin nervously. "I'm game only if you are." Damn it, he say that magic word.

"We both know how straight you guys are. No worry. I just always want to see two stud going at it. Especially hot guys like you"

I torn between Kevin, Gina and Mel.

"I won't wait long boys." Gina let the tip of her tongue touch Mel's nipple. It makes her body shudder and let out a sexy moan.

I feel like cumming right there.

"Okay okay!" I raise to my knee on the bed. Pulling Kevin over to follow me. Our body facing each other but our head towards the girls. "This only should be between us buddy!" Kevin remarks. I know we both nervous but our dicks do the thinking already.

Gina give a winning smile. "Give him a lick on the nipple. Just like what you want me to do to her"

"Fuck!" Kevin curse. Close his eyes and lower his head towards my nipple. He is much shorter than me so it makes sense that he do me. I close my eyes. I feel so nervous and yet excited at the same time. I trust Kevin and we're best bud. So, Whatever about to happen is just between us.

A lip is on my right nipple. Giving the tip a moving circle around it. I shudder and let out a loud moan. Fuck! I open my eyes and saw Kevin below me, giving my nipple a tongue bath. I can't believe how good it feels. And this comes from a guy. I wonder how good will it be when Gina and Mel will be working on my nipple later.

"Ow yeah thats what I mean baby!" Gina give an approving moan and squeeze Mel's boobs. "Carry on stud. Work on his other nipple!"

Kevin lap on to my other nipple and I have to hold on to his shoulder, else I will fall. It was that good. I can't believe that my nipple will give such pleasure. And my buddy is the one giving it. I pant heavy. And grab onto my friends bare shoulder. Feeling his naked skin for the first time. It gives me chil. It feels so different than a girl's body. I can feel his muscle tense under my touch. But I have to hold on because, otherwise I will fall.

"Stop stop." I pant heavy. "I'm going to cum"

Kevin look up. "Huh?"

"No, no! Don't stop! Carry on!" Only now then we both looking at the girls. And found them

Playing with their pussy and each other nipples. Kevin groan at the sight and he continue to his minister to my nipple while keep his eyes open watching the girls. He use his right hand to hold on to my hips while jerking furiously with her left hand. I shudder at the touch.

"Gosh! You guys makes my pussy wet!" Gina exclaim. Both girls moaning and panting heavy. "Lick him lower."

Kevin hypnotized by their action and moving his lips towards my abs.

"Lower!" Gina shout.

The lower Kevin lips goes, I feel uncontrollable urge at my groin. I no longer looking at the girls but looking down on Kevin. And I saw where his lips are going to go next. Shit. "Kevin! Stop"

"Lower!" Gina shout louder and squeeze Mel's boobs harder. Both girl moaning louder. And I know Kevin attention is no longer on his lips because his eyes are all on the girls. I saw his tongue circling lower and lower from my abs towards my belly button and soon he's gonna reach my pubic area.

Instinctively he avoided my crotch and planted his lips on the side. Just where the mermaids line are. Little did he knows it was my sensitive area and nobody has ever go down on me like that. It gives me shudder and I scream and my body jerk.

I have an explosive orgasm. Literally. My cum hits Kevin on the cheek. Neck and his chest. And seeing this gives me even more chill and uncontrollable orgasm I ever had. My dick keep shooting and shooting until I collapse on my back panting heavy.

I think I see stars.

There was silence in the room while I'm panting.

I look down and saw Kevin face. The look on his face is priceless. There was my cum everywhere on his face, neck and chest. I want to laugh but I just feel so jelly and I laid down my head looking at the ceiling. Composing my breath.

"Holy shit! That was so hot!" Exclaim Gina. Mel is screaming. Both of them race towards the bed. "You're fucking expert! Come! Do us!" Command Gina to Kevin.

He suddenly forget about the cum and quickly lap on both girls that offer themselves to him. They all forget about me and Kevin quickly lapping on Mel's boobs while squeezing Gina's. And back and forth. Playing with his expert tongue. The girls making whimpering moaning sound of sex just like in the porn.

I think I passed out or something. The next thing I remember is I feel a wet lips on my now sensitive penis and I saw Gina and Mel playing with my dick. Kevin is below eating their pussy. I told them I want to take a break cuz I feel so sensitive. I rush to the toilet and take a pee.

Looking at the mirror. I was wondering. What is happening. I shudder at the thought of Kevin's lips on my nipples and my cum on his face. It suppose to be disgusting but it's kinda hot at the same time. I don't know how to describe it. That was my first orgasm without using my hand, and it was coming from a dude?

From Kevin.

I quickly brush away the thought.

I leave the toilet and saw Kevin already putting on condom and fucking Gina. Kevin ask if I'm alright and asking me to do Mel.

I kiss her and soon we’re making out and groping each other. She touch me all over and kiss my whole body but somehow it feels different from Kevin's lips. Maybe I still tired. Or she's just inexperience. I thought. Mel is trying her best to worship my body and slurping my cock. Soon I was find some iron for my wood. I’m ready for my first fuck.

I rip open the condom and took it out, only to realize that I have no clue how to put it on.

Mel’s trying to help me to no avail. Gina give me a puzzled look. “You’re never done this before don’t you?”

Kevin curse. “Fuck! I forgot” He pull out of Gina and kneel down in front of me. “Come bro, I’ll help you.” Kevin ask me to hold the tip of the condom.

"Here, press this tip. Make sure there's no air." While he roll the condom on my shaft, totally oblivious to the fact that he's touching my dick in the process. It feels good. He apply a good amount of lube on my shaft and slap my butt. "There you go. Teach a guy wear condom and he will fuck for life." he chuckled at his own joke.

We bump fist. And get ready to fuck our girls.

He say that I should fuck Gina first coz she's already wet and ready. I did as told and watch my dick disappeared into her pussy. It feels weird and not like what I imagined. It doesn't feel tight and honestly it feels loose.

I started to hammer right away and drill her pussy. Trying my best to feel and enjoy the sensation. Gina whimper and start moaning. Rubbing her hand on my abs and chest. I look down and saw her boobs bouncing up and down and I can't help to touch and squeeze it. It's soft and bouncy. Not hard and rugged like Kevin's muscle. Just now when I'm holding on to Kevin's shoulder, I feel safe. Because he's strong and sturdy. Gina's boobs is small, and soft and I have to support myself on my leg.

What am I thinking. I'm having my first fuck. Why can't I enjoy and have fun. This is my fault. I cum too fast that's why. Now I don't feel anything. I try to rationalize.

I look over to Kevin, and saw that he's done giving a tongue bath on Mel's pussy and putting on a new condom. Ready to fuck her. His erect dick disappear into her pussy and he make a grunt and give a satisfied look on his face. I get it. Mel's pussy is tighter. I can't wait to try her soon.

I notice that I keep stealing a glance toward Kevin, watching his abs as he move and his body glisten with sweat. Maybe that's how I look too, since I was also perspiring and glisten with sweat.

Gina's asking me to go faster which I did, and found out that she jerk spasmodically and I feel her pussy getting wet. I lap on her lips and kissing her neck. Knowing that she reaches her orgasm.

After Kevin cum into his condom I swap and fuck Mel. But strangely, I still feel loose. I don't get what so fun about fucking a pussy. I think my hand feels better.

Only when Mel's playing with my nipples then I feel the urge and I slam my dick faster and harder until I cum to the condom. But the orgasm feel nothing like the first. I wonder what's wrong.

The girls make their way to the washroom and showered while I lie down on the bed looking to the ceiling catching my breath. Kevin lie down beside me and look at me grinning.

"Awesome night bro?"

I chuckled. "Hell yeah! My first sex is a foursome epic"

"I know right! We should do this again bro! I think you're really bring luck to me. That was the best fuck I had for a long time."

I shrugged. Maybe.

End of chapter two.

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[timtale]

Chapter 03 - The Inner Conflict

I told you before that I have a Catholic background when I was a kid right? I grew up thinking that sex was bad. It's sinful. I will go to hell, yadaa yadaa yadaa. So that's why I never do anything with my first girlfriend in high school. We both a good church kid. The most we do is probably holding hand? I'm not sure if I even love her. I do like her. She's sweet and gentle. But when we broke up, I don't think I cry a bucket. I move on easily. But that's another story. Let's go back about the sex.

Yes, I was a virgin until I am 19. I know my big bro and my cousins lost it at much earlier age. I know my highschool friends have it with a prostitutes. But I just thought it was all sinful. So, do I jerk off? Hell yeah. I got to release it. But after that, I had a deep pang of guilt. I feel dirty and worthless. And when I go back to church, I will do a confession, ask for forgiveness and I feel better. But I jerk off for like almost everyday, so the cycle goes on and on.

But the weird thing is.

After I had my first sex. I didn't feel any guilt at all. I feel satisfied. I feel it's the natural thing to do. To feel the warm skin under my touch. To kiss. The orgasm. It's just feel right. Jerking off was not natural. Sex is feel right.

So, I become addicted to sex.

I become addicted to clubbing.

You know, after the first mind blowing experience of sex - having a foursome with Kevin and two girls. Almost every weekend we went to the club hunting for chicks to have sex.

It's not always successful though. Sometimes, we just get drunk and get a few phone number from some girls. Sometimes, we got lucky. We brought back the girls to our apartment and bang her in our room.

No, we never had another foursome at the hotel. Although I wish we could. It was fun banging the chick coz they love it. But I think, I got addicted to have Kevin there with me. I don't know, having him there in the room with me, making me feel safe. He's in charge. He tell me what to do. He know what he's doing. And he wants me to enjoy and have fun.

I ask him if we can try it again, and he promise me when the opportunity arise, we will. But it never happen. Either the girls is not interested or shy, or once Kevin had a girl on his own he kinda forget about our arrangement. And as much as I want to reminded him about us having another foursome, I don't want to come too strongly. I don't want Kevin to know, that it was I who wants him.

Shit. What is happening to me?

 

[Guest Can't wait]

Quick! Next chapter Pls!

[timtale]

Chapter 04 - Bromance skinship

 

"So what do you think of her bro?"

It's Sunday morning. Kevin sitting on my bed wearing only his boxer. Back against the wall. Smiling like a happy man. And I was just sitting beside him on my bed, also in my boxer. I can feel his naked chest pressed against my shoulder while he trying to take a peek the phone in my hand.

"She's pretty thats for sure." My finger swap his phone screen, browsing through the girl's facebook profile pic. "You like her?" I look to him and realize my face just inches from his face. I could feel his breath giving me a weird chil.

"Well the feeling is good. I have to say the chemistry is there."

"That's great. Tell me more!" I returned back the phone to Kevin. He put the phone aside and start to describe how they met and have a date and all. Where she is from and all. And immediately I regret that I return his phone too soon. Coz now Kevin move away and lie down on my pillow. His chest no longer pressed against my skin.

I try to pay attention about his story about his new conquer, but I notice that my gaze was looking at his nipples, his chest muscles, and his abs. He has this aura about him that I like. He always so happy, confidence, positive attitude about everything. I like watching him talk and I like the way he smile. It's hard not to be happy around this guy, he's just so contagious.

I figured that all this while, I never give much thought about Kevin. I know that he's decent looking like every guy. I never have any second thought about any guy before. But the more I knew him, the more I saw his smile, I think he is an attractive guy. I won't say that he is beautiful because he is not a girl. But I guess I can say that he is handsome. A manly kind of handsome. If that's what it is.

"So, I take it that you wanna go steady then?"

Kevin smirk, or should I say blush. He scratch his head and I can't help to notice his arm flexed.

"I don't know man. I do wish that me and Jacelyn can be more than friends. You know.. I haven't even had sex with her. I wanna take it slow. And little Kevin haven't got any action since two weeks now." Kevin looking up to the ceiling, his eyes closed, his other hand scratch his groin, and I use this chance to scan a quick glance to his crotch. I can tell that the bulge is getting bigger.

I swallow hard.

"Uh.. Tell me about her boobs. Is it big?"

"Oh yeah! It's big and her ass is out of this world!" He started to fondle his cock under his boxer. "Damn! I can't wait to touch it and squeeze it."

"Yeah I bet it's nice to play with her boobies." I tease. Kevin grunted and close his eyes. Probably thinking about what he's gonna do to her. He clearly playing with his dick now under his boxer. He clearly forget about me being in the room and enjoying himself.

"Kevin um.."

"Huh?" He open one eyes to look at me.

"You know we are best bud right?"

"Of course man. We are the best."

"Well, it's alright if you want to jerk off here bro. I knew you need a release." I carry on. "I got a porn, we can watch it together."

Kevin look at me and grin.

"Fuck! You really don't mind do you?"

"Fuck no. We had a foursome together remember? I've seen your junk and you saw mine. Besides I'm kinda horny myself." I get up and drop my boxer to the ground. My erection sprung free in an instant.

"Fuck yeah! Let's wank bro!" He get up and drop his boxer also. His cock proudly stand at a full mast.

I play on some random porn on my laptop and we started to wank furiously on my bed. I don't know why I feel so happy to be with him. I've been wanted to have another foursome action and although there's only me and him, and porn, I feel the exact same sensation I got when we had our foursome. I always thought it was because he was more expert and he can teach me stuff that heighten the experience. But now that I realize, It was the smell of his body I guess. The sight of his muscle tense, that give me a thrill.

I feel some chill on my neck.

I took a bottle of lube and squirt some glob to my palm. I wrap it around my shaft.

"Good idea!" Kevin exclaimed.

"You want some too?"

"Sure."

Instead of passing him the bottle, I squirt another lube to my palm then reach out and wrap it onto his cock. I apply it up and down.

"Jezz!" Kevin hiss.

I look at him quizzically. I let go my hand.

"Sorry. Could you.. Could you do that again one more time bro. It's fucking feel awesome."

I'm not sure what he mean, so I squirt again a generous amount of lube to his cock. Kevin moan while close his eyes. I feel his body shudder to my touch. I work the lube on his shaft and soon began to jerk him off.

It feels good to touch his cock. It's thick and veiny. And it feels awesome to know that I'm the one who make him feels good.

I move closer for an easy access and we shift our back to the wall until our bare shoulder touched. I feel intoxicated by our closeness. And all this while I never let go of his cock. Kevin keep his eyes closed, seems lost to the sensation and let me minister to his cock.

I swap my hand and use my left to jerk him while jerking myself with my right hand. It brings my face closer to his naked body. I feel a strong urge to press my lips to his naked shoulder. He feels my breath and look up to my face. We stare into each other eyes for a moment and I don't know what to do. I swear I could kiss him right there. He looks so beautiful from this close. But no way I'm gonna do that, he's not a girl.

"You want me to do yours too?"

I shake my head. "Nah, I'm good. I happy to help a brother." Kevin smile and put his finger playing with his nipple. Soon he seems lost to the sensation. I look at his nipple and I remember how good it feels when his lips was working on my nipples.

I brought my face down and kiss his nipple. Kevin moaned. His shoulder limp. I began to work on his nipple with my tongue. I no longer trying to remember what he did, but I just do what I want to do to his body. It feels unreal to kiss and licking his naked body. It's definitely smaller than a girls tits and it's kinda salty. I don't think I like the taste of his nipple but I like the fact that doing this gives pleasure to Kevin. I like to please him.

I lap and chew on his nipple and I feel his breath getting heavy. I knew he's getting close.

I feels his body tense and finally he let out a loud moan and his cock erupted. I watch the cum splat into his abs, his chest and some to his neck. And it brings back the memory of my first explosive orgasm and it gives me shiver to my whole body. I jerk and feels the best orgasm of my life coming to me.

"Fuck!!!" I yelled and feel the cum splat onto my naked abs and chest. I close my eyes and lost to the sensation for what it seems like eternity.

When I woke up, I look at Kevin and he's grin from ear to ear.

"Fucking unreal bro. Whatever you do just now, it feels nice!"

We both chuckled. I laid down helplessly feel tired all of sudden. Feeling happy.

"Alright." He suddenly get up from my bed and grab a tissue to clean up his cum. "I.. I gotta take a shower bro. Gotta clean up this mess." He busy wiping his cum and put on his boxer. I look up at him but he avoided my eyes. He looks nervous somehow. "Um... Thanks buddy. I.. Gotta go." He walk out the room without even look back.

Suddenly I feel so empty. Why can't he stay and enjoy the moment,

I stare at the ceiling and I feel like I'm a cheap whore.

 

End of chapter four

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Edited March 4, 2015 by timtale

[otokonoko]

Oh dear...

[timtale]

Chapter 05 -The Denial

 

The week went uneventful. I wanted to talk to Kevin about what happened that Sunday but I think somehow he avoid me. We used to go out for dinner together, but that night he was nowhere to be seen. That afternoon was the last time I saw him at the house.

My other flatmate knock my door asking me for dinner but I don't feel like eating. I actually waiting for Kevin to have dinner together.

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One night I was dreaming. Very vivid, and clear. I dreamt of Kevin. We both naked, touching each other. I imagine kissing him, lip to lip. We jerk off to each other, but suddenly I have a strong desire to kiss his penis, and when I put it in my mouth. I wake up. Perspire. Panting. And I couldn't sleep till morning.

I miss my class the next morning just because I don't feel like going. I don't want to see Kevin. I wanted to lock myself in the house. I just ate the protein bar I used to keep in my bag for my lunch.

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I saw Kevin one morning before he went to work, out from the shower. He greet me nonchalantly just like usual. I thought that things will go back to normal between us.

But that weekend, when I ask if he wanna go club with me and all, he said he already got another plan. He meeting this girl Jacelyn, the one he told me about previous week.

Never before in my life I feel so betrayed, cheated and lonely. I called my classmate and ask them to accompany me to go club, and I drink and drunk like I never had.

There's this one girl that show interest in me and pressed herself to me. I brought her home. And I fuck her.

I love fucking her. She had a great boobs. And I love kissing her. For the moment I forgot all about Kevin.

Yes that's right. I can't be gay. I'm still a man. I love pussy, and boobs. And I love fucking girls.

There's no way I'm gay. I'm no sissy and I'm not a girl.

I go back to my normal routine. Go to class during the week and fuck a girl during the weekend.

Soon me and Kevin were talking again like a normal bud.

Life is good.

Until one day.

He brought back that bitch home. Jacelyn. And he fuck her inside his room. I can hear her moan. I can hear his grunt. I stand outside his door feeling numb.

I feel devastated. Hurt beyond words.

What is happening to me

 

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Edited March 2, 2015 by timtale

[timtale]

Chapter 06 - The Wailing

 

That night, I lay in bed, staring at the empty ceiling. Long after I completed my daily masturbation. I've always jerk off to porn, or lately I jerk off to my memory of the foursome. But tonight I jerk off to one person.

Kevin.

My flatmate. My best bud. My love.

I'd known I was drawn to Kevin ever since that foursome encounter at the hotel. He was my best friend before that, for sure. But that mind blowing orgasm has brought my thought about Kevin to another level entirely. I'd known I yearned to touch him, to be
near him. I even had imagined having sex (in some nonspecific way) with him.
 

Yet it was true. I was blindingly, hopelessly, head over heels, slash my wrists the long way, in love. With a boy. With a flatmate.
 

With a muscular and obviously not-queer guy who for all his friendliness and casual intimacy with me, would undoubtedly recoil in disgust if I ever gave voice to what I'd just realized. Hell, part of me recoiled
at the idea.  

I couldn't love another boy, that wasn't supposed to happen. That wasn't normal.  You fell in love with girls, and you got married and had kids and a house and a dog and stuff. You didn't fall in love with
another boy.
 

I remembered hearing from a preacher on my church back then in Jakarta about homosexuals, and it had been horrifying. Homosexual is a sin, punishable by eternal fire in Hell. The moslems activist condemned a sodomist who were having sex with teenager boys. Doctors had described being homosexual as a mental disease. The media had said it all. Sick. Diseased. Promiscuous. Incapable of forming any lasting relationship. Anonymous. Displaced.  An outsider.
 

Was that really me? Was I sick, a degenerate, a pervert?

Jesus, I'm not even graduated yet, how could I have become diseased this fast. I must be
incredibly sick, then. What would Mom think or my brother, or my dad?

Shame and guilt washed over me.

I feel the tears broke out, and poured down my cheeks silently, heedless of my willpower trying to hold them back. My body ached from the shuddering despair that enveloped me.
 

I found myself out in the hallway, past the door, where I knew Kevin was sleeping peacefully, with Jacelyn in his arm. I need to get out. I needed air, I needed to clear my head, to think. I needed to cry, somehow.
 

I found myself downstair walking toward the park. The night had turned cold and windy. I should have put on pants, or a sweater, or something. Jacket, at least. The park
was a good twenty meter out from the side of the building, with large lawn closer in.

"What the hell am I doing?" I asked abruptly. My breathing was fast and shallow.  

I sat heavily on the stone bench, pulled my knees to my chin, and wept.

I can't be here anymore.

I can't live here and saw him live happily with that bitch. It's just unbearingly painful.

I have to move out.

End of chapter six.

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I love it . Can't wait

[timtale]

Thanks for the MV. It's cute!

Although it's not exactly similar to what happen

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[timtale]

Chapter 07 - The Revelation

 

Months passed. I had a new flat. New flatmate. New friends. New girlfriend.

Met a pretty chicks through a friend. She's a real beauty. She's small, petit, but all about her looks so proportional. I like her. Her name is Fivien. A Malaysian Chinese. She's a doll. Straight lush hair. Work as a beautician. 3 years older than me. I'm 20 now.

I always fuck girls older than me. Girls my age are just too innocent for my taste, and I like it when girls jump over me at the club, begging me to bring her home.

But now, I got Fivien almost every weekend. I fucked her good. Every time she stay over my place, or me on her place. But she live with a room mate so she prefer spent the night at my place instead. She will scream everytime I enter her, helplessly begging her macho boyfriend to go harder and harder I gave her. After I'm done cumming to the condom, she will lay still ontop of my chest. That's what I like about sex with girl, I like the after sex intimacy. I hug her tight, tousle her hair, and she play her fingers on my chest and abs. Tease my sensitive nipples. And she knows how to make me feel good. She will compliment my muscle, my look, how she loved that I'm hard all over. At first she thought that I'm an athlete, some dragon boater or something, I have no idea what kind of sport it is. We don't have dragon boating back there in Jakarta. I did some googling on that sport, and found that It's required some stamina and adrenalin. It's a competition sport. Quite interesting. Maybe I should check it out someday.

She is the motivation for me to workout at gym more often. Partly because of her admiration upon my body during sex turned me on. But also, coz I love to feel more confident about myself. I feel strong and sturdy. I feel every movement of my body swing on purpose. Manly and macho.

I became more concern with the way I act. But, looking at how big I am now, there's no way people will think that I'm sissy. If any ever thought that I'm gay, I'm gonna beat some sense to his head. I'm serious. I'm not gay. I couldn't be gay. I'm in control over my life.

Or so I thought.

Until one night, after a hot sex with fivien, and she lay on top of me and we had our after sex intimacy thingie. She asked, "Dear. I been wondering, I know all of your friends but I don't think I ever met Kevin. Who is he?"

I froze.

"What? What do you mean?"

"Well." She move her head and face me. She had a quizzical look written in her face. "You're talking in your sleep you know. It's been a while now."

"And I think you callling out the name Kevin."

Oh shit.

End of chapter seven.

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Edited March 3, 2015 by timtale

[Guest Can't wait]

A great read so far. Just dun fall into the "actually Kevin is gay all along" direction Pls...

[Sport.homme]

Nice

[timtale]

A great read so far. Just dun fall into the "actually Kevin is gay all along" direction Pls...

 

Thank you. No worry. That was never my intention from the beginning. *wink

The story with Kevin is just a part of the introduction.

 

I try to keep the story moving faster because there's too much of straight sex going on in the beginning.

Edited March 4, 2015 by timtale

[Guest Can't wait]

Thank u ! Developing v nicely. The "almost there" feel is always more irresistible thAn the straight-on sex . Pls continue .

[max001]

LOVE it... pls keep it coming!!!

[timtale]

Chapter 08 - The Invitation

 

Water splashing at my face. The paddle on my hand rip through the water bringing our boat and all the 22 rider inside slid forward. My muscle tense. Adrenalin run through my vein. Catch. Pull. Release. Catch. Pull. Release. We row and row following the beat of the drum. I shout when we reach our finish line. The other yelled. I’m glad I finally tried the dragon boat rowing. This is such an addictive sport. Such a perfect sport for a macho guy (like me). I love the feeling of all my muscle work in unison with other guy. I love the feeling of being surrounded by other strong, macho guy inside the boat. The boat thick with the smell of our sweat and testosterone.

I’ve been rowing for almost a month now. My team met up and practice every Sunday afternoon at Macritchie reservoir. I’m glad Jason ask me to join his team. I’ve been wondering and wanted to try this sport ever since Fivien mentioned about it. Jason and his other friend from our campus knew that I’m interested and invited me in. Nice guy he is.

Once we done our debriefing, it’s time to hit the shower.

To be honest, that was my other reason why I like this sport. Macritchie has a communal shower and I notice that Singaporean has no problem to shower together in the nude. I guess it was because of their army training. In the beginning I feel embarrassed and shy with the fact that I have to strip naked in front of other dude. The thing is that we Indonesian are modest and have no such culture. We all prefer to shower individually inside cubicle. But the moment I realize that other guys pay very little attention to their naked state and chatting animatedly with each other, I feel comfortable with my own nakedness. I become less self-conscious about my state of undress. The chatting and bantering in the shower become another demonstration of masculinity and confidence of a guy with their own body. Although it’s the time where guys are bonding with each other as friends and teammates; but is also a moment where each guys competing to prove that they are more alpha than the other by bragging about their muscles or the size of their dick. Luckily, I have no problem with all in that department, thanks to God and my parent I guess.

It’s funny to see that in their pursue of acting macho, any senseless lame joke will trigger them to laugh out loud showing off how much authority (or testosterone) they have over their fellow mates. Looking back, it was such a display of vanity for guys our ages. But back then, I couldn't knew better. I did it too. For me, it’s kinda addicting, to feel accepted, to feel acknowledged by fellow alpha male. And that just one of the reason for me to be drawn by this sport.

Another reason is, I got a chance to sate my curiosity about other guys physiques. Including how their muscles are shaped, how their dick looks like. Most of their dicks are uncircumcised--which most of Singaporeans are--while most of Indonesians I know are circumcised; including me. I found myself appreciating guys with muscles better than the guy without physical fitness. And through this ‘educational’ observation, I found that some guys are look more pleasing to the eyes than the other. I started to find out what the meaning of handsome is. I find that Jason, and his other buddies Melvin have an above average look compare to the rest of our team mate. Even to the rest of the world standard--if there ever such standard at all. I found myself admiring and steal a glance at their muscles and privates whenever we showered together. It’s just a pure admiration and acknowledgement I guess, that’s explain why I hardly had any erection near them. It’s not a lust, it’s a male curiosity thing I guess. Well, of course when the other guys are talking about girls and pussy it will excite me a little bit and giving me a half boner, but hey the other had it too, so no problem with that. We are a healthy young guy anyway.

Jason and I have become a close buddies, in the team and in campus. Usually after the exercise we will go out and eat together with Melvin at nearby hawker center. Chit chatting about school and stuff and all. But let me tell you about Jason and Melvin another time. Because, I have other thing on my mind now. I got a text message coming in while I was changing in the locker area. I saw an incoming text from a person I never expected, a long time friend that I never keep in touch.

It was from Kevin.

It's a short message.

Saying that I am cordially invited to the wedding of Kevin Lim and Jacelyn Guo at the month of May.

---

"Hey, Tim, you all right buddy?"

I think I was staring a little bit too long into the phone screen. Jason was beside me, all dressed up looking at me with a worried look on his handsome face.

"Uhm yeah... Well... Yeah.. What's up?"

"Are you sure?" Ask Jason caringly. "Me and Melvin, we done changing and..." He leave his word hanging. "We're going to eat right?"

"Oh yeah. Sure. I join you guys."

"Sooo... We're gonna wait for you over there until you finish whatever you're doing then?" Jason making a gesture with his finger pointing out that I'm actually still buck naked in front of the locker.

"Oh yeah. Sure."

I put on a short and look back at the phone.

"Hey Jason."

"Yeah?"

"Could you please wait for me. I got to make an important call. It won't take too long. I promise." I press dial before Jason even answer.

After a few ring of connecting tune I hear a familiar voice on the speaker.

"Hello?"

"Kevin?"

"Oh.. Timo, is that you? Heeeyy.. How're you doing buddy. I didn't expect you to call me. You never call or visit me back there, I thought you were busy. It's good to hear your voice my man. I missed you very much Timo, you know that?" Kevin sound just like the old himself. Kevin that I like. Always have the friendly, happy, positive tune in his voice.

"I miss you too Kevin." I swallow hard.

I realize Jason was still two meter away from me listening to our conversation with curiosity. So I move further to the corner blocking the phone with my hand. Hoping that Jason won't hear much about our conversation.

"Hey listen um... I got your message. About the wedding. So it's official yeah?"

"Yeah mann... She finally say yes! Can you believe it? I finally got a wife! Aren't you gonna congratulate me or something?" Kevin chuckled.

"Yeah. I think. I mean.. Congratulations bro." I try to sound cheerful although suddenly I feel like I had an elephant in my throat. "Happy for you."

"Awww. Thanks so much bro! I do feel so happy now. Happy that I got a wife, and happy that I got to hear my best buddy voice again. I really really miss you bro. I never expect that you move out so fast. You say that you need to find a place closer to your campus. And you didn't reply my messages after that. I thought you were very busy with your projects and stuff. Hey, tell me. How about your love life? You got a girlfriend?"

"Yeah I do. Her name's Fivien." While Kevin rambling on, the elephant in my throat grows bigger almost choking me with my own words. How I miss hearing his voice.

"Awesome! That's good. I'm happy for you. Tell me, how is she likes? Pretty?"

The elephant were now pressing my chest so heavy. Pushing the water up to my eyes. It makes me unable to form sentences. I can only answer some uhm n ahh for all his machine gun rambling questions. He keep going on and on asking about Fivien. Rambling about our old flatmate that he hate. I mean his flatmate. About our time together. About all those other stuff.

God, how I miss him so much. I wanna see him. But, I don't think it's possible for him to see me like this.

"Timo, u still there?"

"Timo?"

"Yeah." I whisper. I was holding my breath just now. I'm fighting back the tears that about to burst. Damn you elephant.

"Oh great. I thought I lost you. Look, I guess you were busy there or something buddy. I just want to tell you one last thing bro. About the wedding. Because we're both Malaysian, so we will have our wedding back in our hometown. Easier for the parent and the relatives you see. I really wish you can come, but I really understand if you couldn't make it. Since you're busy and all. But if you can, please bring Fivien okay? I do want to see her bro. Promise?"

I can't answer him. If I let go my breath all that come out of me will be a loud wailing. I can't let him hear that.

"Uhm. Okay I guess I hang up then.

Thanks for calling me bro. I appreciate that. I really really miss you bro. Call me when you can okay? Love you. Bye."

Click.

Suddenly the elephant pop like a water baloon and it caused my tears to burst and choked my throat. I let go a loud wail and I sat right there on the floor. And I wept.

My Kevin. He is gone.

Forever.

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[Guest Can't wait]

How did u learn to write like that ! U should write a book

[timtale]

How did u learn to write like that ! U should write a book

 

I still have much to learn. This is my first attempt to write and it's challenging because English is not my first language.

I guess it helps that I use my personal experiences as a source material and the rest is just flows. And knowing that I'm quite a detailed person, I automatically put a lot of effort to describe a situation as close as possible to the reality.

Thank you very much for your appreciation since the start. I wanted to write this down as a practice, so please continue to give your feedback to help me improve the story.

 

Cheers!

[timtale]

Chapter 09 - The Breakup

 

"You what?!!!"

"Yes Tim. You heard me. I'm breaking up on you." Said Fivien calmly with a firm tone in her voice.

It was Saturday evening. We're at my flat. We just back from the dinner. I know she's been quiet over the meal like she has a lot on her mind and all. But I didn't see it coming.

Hell, I never saw it coming.

"You breaking up on me?" I repeated her last sentence slowly as if I'm questioning myself if I heard that right. Searching at her eyes to see whether she's serious about what she said. "But whyyy...!?"

"You can't be serious? You're joking right? Okay I know. I know! This is a joke! This must be April's fool. Wait, what date is it today?"

Fivien sigh. She look kinda impatient. Never before in my life I saw her this cold and distant. She's always been my petit little girlfriend who is soft spoken and sweet. This is not Fivien that I know.

"No, Tim. I'm not joking. You heard that right. We're done."

"But whyyy? Why? I thought we were happy?" I didn't want to sound naggy but I demanded an answer.

"Look." Fivien take a seat on my bed. Tapping a space beside her asking me to sit down. "Sit down please."

"No. I'm fine. Just tell me."

She look down and inhale. "Okay, I don't know how to say it in a better way. But I guess you needed to know."

I fold both my hand in front of me and snort. I'm putting on my tough guy act. It's time for her to see who's in charge here.

She’s looking at the floor, her finger fidgeting playing with my bed sheet.

"You remember two weeks ago? It was my birthday.”

I nodded.

“And do you remember what you gave me that night?”

I snort. “Look, if it’s about gift. I can buy you a new one. Any expensive thing that you want. Just name it, I will buy for you.”

She raise her hand to stop me. “Stop it. That’s not my point. Tell me what you gave me and what do we do after that.”

I sigh.

“Okay, I spread rose petal on my bed. Lighten up candles, I blindfolded you and then I lie on my bed naked wrapped with the giant red ribbon. I say that.. I'm the present. But, you say it’s cute and you love it very much!” I raise my nose accusingly. It sound so silly now, but back then I thought it was a cool idea.

She’s smile. “Yeah, that was cute. You look so sexy in that thing.” She sigh. “So what do we do after that?”

“We have sex of course. We make love. You say it was the best sex ever. You seem so happy that day.” I smirk, remembering that day when I fuck her over and over and over until she gave up.

“Yes, that’s right. It was the best night of my life.”

“So?” I raise my shoulder. “I don’t see any problem here.”

“Listen Tim. The point is..”

I raise one of my eyebrow. I waited for her to continue.

“The point is, you are a sweet, gentle, caring, smoking hot boyfriend I ever have. And the sex is great. No doubt about that. But.”

She paused.

“But the thing about us is just sex, sex, and sex. All the time in your mind is always sex.”

“What's wrong with that. I know you love sex too. You love my body, you love my dick, oh yes you love having sex with me. You keep saying that."

She sigh exasperatedly. “Tim, I told you that I’m 23. But actually I’m almost 26 now. It’s time for woman my age to get a husband.”

“Wait a minute! I don’t care how old you are. But If you want me to marry you, you got to wait until I’m graduated.”

“Exactly! That’s what I’m saying.” Fivien cut me down.

“When you’re graduating you will like, how old? Twenty four?”

“Twenty three.” I corrected her.

“And I will be twenty nine.”

“I will still marry you.”

She roll her eyes. “Well, Thank you. But I doubt it’s gonna happen.”

“What do you mean?”

“You’re from Indonesia, and I’m from Malaysia. When you are graduated you probably just gonna go back for good to Jakarta, and continue your family business over there. And I will still be stuck here in Singapore.”

“I will find a job here.”

“Yes, that’s possible. But what if it isn’t?”

“What if you can’t find a job?”

“I will bring you to Jakarta, and I will marry you there.”

“That’s very sweet of you, dear, but what will your parent say? Aren’t they gonna thought that I’m too old for you? Or that they already prepare someone for you to marry?”

I snort sarcastically. “You think I’m what? I will say no to them!”

“Tim, I’ve been with you for a few months now. I saw how you react, I saw how you behave, and I know you won’t say no to them. They’re the one who provide for you. You will follow what your parent told you to do.”

I felt a stab on my chest.

“How dare you say that about me? You don’t know anything about me!” I yelled.

“Tim answer me honestly. What is your plan for the future? What do you plan to do? If you really gonna leave your parent’s fortune, how you gonna live? How are you gonna pay for the rent of this condo? How are you gonna provide for your kids? For our kids?”

I keep my silent. Digesting all those words that was spoken to me. All I can taste is a giant lump in my throat. All that she say is hurting, but I know it’s all true. I never thought about all that.

“All that you’ve been doing is partying, clubbing, playing with your computer games, hanging out with your friends.”

“But I’m just twenty for god’s sake! Isn’t it normal for guys my age to have some fun?”

“I know Tim. I know. I’ve been there. I’ve been your age. I know how good it feels to enjoy all that, but I knew better now. Well..., You’re cute and all, and the time spent with you has been great so far..."

"...But I think it’s time for me to move on and...  and find someone who is more mature... and able... to provide for me in the future.”

“No no no no!” I scream and kneel down in front of her. I grab her hand with both my hand.

“Please no Fivien. Don’t do this to me. Please dear, don’t leave me!”

“Yes Tim. I’m sorry. I’ve thought about it. It's final. I don’t think that we are meant to be together.”

“Nooo!” I started to sob. I feel so devastated. I put my head on her knees. “Please Fivien, don’t leave me.”

She keeps quiet. I feel her hands stroking my hair gently.

“Please,” I whisper. “Don’t leave me. Not now. I don't know what will I become without you. Please.”

"I love you." I start to wept.

“Shhh.” She huss me. "You're still young Timmy. You'll gonna find the one true love that you are meant to be with."

"Nooooo." I whimper. "I don't want the other. I want you." I look up and find her eyes was filled with tears and sorrow.

"I beg you. Please."

"Please."

---

And she's gone.

She walk out my life just like that.

No amount of begging and pleading can change her decision. I never thought she can be this cruel to me. What have I done? What did I do to deserve this? What's wrong with me? Why people that I love walk away from my life as if like I’m not worthy for them?

Kevin. He's gone forever.

And now Fivien too?

What should I do? How should I live? Am I suppose to live? Is this the punishment for loving Kevin in the first place? Am I really sick? Am I really a disease that need to be kept a distance from people that I love? I don't deserve to have someone to love me because I'm just a trash? Because I'm so dirty and sick and degenerate.

All this sickening thought keep coming to me. All I keep thinking is dying.

No. I can't stay in this room alone tonight. I needed to have someone here with me. I need to speak with someone. Someone I could trust.

I grab my phone and press dial.

"Hello?"

A familiar voice came into the speaker. A deep calm voice but soothing and firm.

"J.. Jason?"

"Tim? Hey what's up?"

"I need to speak to you."

"Uhm okay."

"Can we meet?"

"Now?" He sound hesitated.

"Yes."

"Uhm. I'm with someone actually."

"Please." My voice sound urgent and desperate.

"Anything wrong bro?"

"Please."

"Tim?"

"Please.." I started to sob. I don't know who else I should call. Never before I feel so alone and worthless.

I heard Jason's voice mumbling in the background with someone. There was some hiss and harsh tone from the other person before Jason’s voice coming to the speaker.

"Tim, where are you now?"

"I'm in my room."

"Okay stay where you are bro. Keep your phone near you. I'm coming in 15 min."

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Edited March 9, 2015 by timtale

[Guest Limkopi]

Nice story....I love reading it.

Timtale. Are u from Indo?

[Guest someone from the past]

Tim is from Yogyakarta, alghough he used to stay in Singapore

[Guest Can't wait]

Thanks for taking time to reply - and I think your descriptive writing actually has a good emotional depth alongside a thrilling sensuality . It's slow teasing burning . Now please reward us with 3 postings . Haha

[timtale]

Chapter 10 - The Talk

Jason reached my apartment not long after he hang up. He stood by the door looking all neat and handsome with his white shirt, pants and shoes. Carrying a 7-11 plastic bag with some stuff inside.

I let him in.

"Thanks for coming in a rush bro. Uhmm.. I'm sorry for ruining your date tonight. It's kinda emergency. I.. I had a rough night." My voice sound funny, creaky like a frog.

"Yeah I figured. You look like shit. Here!"

He handed over the plastic bag to me and taking off his shoes. "I just bought that to cheer you up."

Inside is a few can of beer and chips. Damn he really thoughtful. Told you he is a nice guy.

We enter my room and we both sit on my bed. He open up the beer and pass it on to me.

We had a toast and take a sip. Argh, It feels nice.

"Alright now. Spill it bro. What's up?"

"It's Fivien." I take a heavy breath. I look down. "She dumped me."

Jason raise one eyebrow, looking at me attentively and take another sip. Waiting for me to continue.

"I.. I.." I stutter.

I don't know what else to say. I don't know where to start. So many things going on inside my chest I feel like it's gonna explode anytime soon.

Jason open his arm wide. "Come here bro. It's alright." And then he hug me. He held me tight with his arm. And in his embrace I began to wept.

It's uncontrollable, unpretentious wail I ever had. It's so comforting to have someone beside you whom you trust that you allow to see yourself at the lowest point of your life. Right there, I grasp the true meaning of song title "A shoulder to cry on". One of the lyrics say, everybody just need a shoulder to cry on.

It's so damn right.

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I wept for like a good 20 min. And in all that time Jason were patting my back, stroking my hair, giving me all the comfort that I need.

As I slowly regain my composure, I began to aware how comfortable his chest is. It's wide, solid, all muscle yet soft to the touch. I wonder maybe this is the reason why Fivien likes to lie down on my chest. As I inhale, his smell, a mix aroma of his perfume and his sweat intoxicate my lung. My heart beat fast. I started to erect.

Oh shit, this can't be happening.

I started to aware hundred percent the closeness of my body with this handsome fella; feeling his arm muscle hugged me, rubbing me all over my back. My lips just inches from his neck. My heart beat faster. His neck look so enticing and appealing. Without thinking I planted my lips forward and began to lick, tasting the saltiness of his skin.

I hear Jason gasp.

Fuck!

I'm in trouble. I quickly let go of his embrace. "I.. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." I stutter. I turn my back to Jason and bury my face on my knee. Shiiittt. What am I doing!!! I'm really sick. I feel so disgust with myself.

"Bro, it's all right." I feel Jason arm reach out and embrace me from the back.

"Don't touch me!" I snap.

Jason withdrew his arm quickly at the sound of my voice.

"Please, please don't touch me." I cover my face with my hand and began to wept again. "I'm so sick."

"I'm so sick. I'm so disgusting."

I started to mumbling uncontrollably about how sick, disgusting, degenerate, perverted and worthless I am.

Jason put his arm gently over my back. "It's alright bro." "No you're not sick."

"Yes I am sick! I got erection when you touched me. I'm so disgusting!" I sob.

"Yeah, so what?" Jason snap back.

I turn around to face him. "Huh?"

"Listen bro. I know who you are. And trust me you're not sick."

"What.. What do you mean? You know about m.. me?"

Jason heaved sigh and smile. "I know about you Tim, I know that although you have girlfriend... I know that you like guys too."

"And it's perfectly normal. You don't have to freak out." Jason quickly added.

"Y... You know? B.. But how?"

"Well, it takes one to detect another one."

"Huh?"

Jason smile. "I'm gay Tim. I like guys too."

That was shocking.

"Whoa! Wow!" I don't know how to react. That was a shocking news to take in. "Wow!" I look at Jason in disbelief. He just shrugged.

"Wait a minute, I know what you're doing. you can't be gay. There's no way you can be gay. You're all macho and not sissy and... You just say it to make me feel better don't you?"

"Tim, trust me, I know that I'm gay. I had sex with boys since I was 16. I'm gay and happy and proud. Period. And there's nothing wrong with that." He added.

He continue talking because I was keep silence looking at him with doubt written all over my face. "Look Tim, I know you have a lot of questions going on right now. But believe me. Trust me. I'm here to help you find answer. To help you find what you're looking for. To make you become... who you are."

"Now, take a deep breath. Your face look red. You needed to calm down bro."

I let go a loud gasp. I realize I have been holding my breath. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I find my heart beat slower and getting calm and I open my eyes.

Jason smile. "Good. So... Shoot. Ask me what you want to know."

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And for the next hours, I was asking Jason a lot of stuff about being gay and all. He is being very patient explaining to me what's the deal and implications of being gay and such.

He told me that he has been aware about my curiosity because the way I look at him in the shower. Stealing glances at his body and junk and all. But he didn't want to confront me about it because at first he thought I was a homophobic jerk. I was loudly mentioned how I love pussy and boobs; bashing gays and making a public insult when other team mates were joking in the shower. But when he accidentally listening to my phone conversation with Kevin and discover that my eyes were swollen during our dinner and sulking; he started to put two and two together.

I admitted that Kevin was the guy I have a crush on but I was having trouble with my feeling because of my Catholic upbringing.

He explain that I should erase whatever I was told since I was a kid if I want to have a healthy self image about myself. I got to make peace with my inner self and accept me for who I am. There's nothing wrong with guys who like other guys. We are still a man and loving another man doesn't make us less manly.

I began to accept the fact that not all gays are sissy or dressing up like a girl. That was just a small part of what makes the gay community he says. He told me once I picked up my gaydar I would be surprised that some muscular guys that I often saw at the gym could be gay.

The moment I realize that it was way past midnight, I begged him to stay over because I still have a lot to ask about. But actually I don't want him to leave because I was so scared to feel alone. He objected at first but after making a few text messages he agreed to stay. I lend him my short and T-Shirt but he prefer to sleep topless, just like me.

So we lay side by side on my bed, carry on talking and chit chatting until we both feel sleepy.

As Jason close his eyes and breathing slowly, I was lie there beside him looking at this beautiful man sleeping. I look at his muscular chest moving up and down, our naked shoulder touched. My heart beat fast once again and I began to erect.

I move closer and check if he was sleeping and when I found out that he was out cold, I began to look at his body freely. He look so sexy and hot, and I feel so aroused by his sight.

I thought to myself. Fuck it!

And I move forward to touch him. I bring my face closer to his lips and that's when he open his eyes.

"Whoa Tim!" He jerk out. "What are you doing man!"

"I thought you were gay right?" I asked.

"Yea..."

"Then let me have sex with you!"

"What?! Noo! Don't!"

"Why?"

"Because I have a boyfriend!" Jason snap.

"Boyfriend?"

"Yeah! And we are friends, we are not suppose to have sex with each other."

"Why not? You're my friend but I still want to have sex with you." I insisted. I began to move over on top of him, press his body down and kiss his neck. "Please have sex with me."

"Noooo!" Jason wriggle under my attack on his neck and his face. But the more he resisted, the more it turns me on to kiss his lips. And I'm way stronger than him.

"Stop it Tim, please!"

"Please!" Only when I saw tears swelling on his eyes, I was caught off guard.

"Please stop."

I quickly let go and move away from Jason as if a child being caught stealing cookies by his mom.

"I.. I'm sorry Jason. I don't know what was going on with my head." I stuttered.

"I.. I thought you wanted me too. I really sorry. I truly do. Gosh. I really a messed up."

A pang of guilt and shame washed over me once again. What is wrong with me. I just got myself a good friend and now I'm about to rape him? I really sick. I feel sick. I hate being myself. I hate that I have no control over my own body. I began to sob.

"Tim... It's okay. I forgive you."

"What's wrong with me Jason. I.. If this is what u mean by being gay. That I got loose control so easily by the sight of a muscle, I don't want to take part in this."

"Yeah... That's pretty messed up thinking you have right there." Jason wake up and hug me. "Listen Tim. It's perfectly normal for you to have all this raging desire and aching towards muscular guy."

"But.. You don't even turned on when I want to kiss you. Man, I feel so unwanted."

Jason giggle. "Timmy.. Bro. You have waaay a lot to learn man. If only you know that many gays will want to have sex with a hot guy like you, you will be surprise with the amount of guys lining up. I admit I am tempted. But..."

"...You see. I have a boyfriend. And I love him. He's my one and only. I love him for his everything. Not just for his sex."

"And if I had sex with you, it will be just lust. It will be over in a minutes. And I don't want to risk my relationship with Melvin just for a few minutes of fun with you."

"M... Melvin? You mean our friend Melvin? He's your boyfriend?"

"Yeah.." Jason chuckled. "I thought you will know sooner or later."

"Ohh." I look down. "Gosh Jason, I'm so sorry. I feel so worthless now. I feel like shit. I'm a..."

Jason hold my shoulders and ask me to look at him. "Tim, look at me. I know you are a good person and you don't have to feel that way. Can you promise?"

I nodded weakly.

"All you need to do now is to have a peace with yourself. And believe that you too will soon find out what you want and find out the one true love that you deserve."

"We're still young. My friend. There's still much for you to learn."

I nodded. All what he says is true but at that time it doesn't make any sense to me yet. If only at that time I was able to grasp Jason advice, I might be able to avoid the misery that will about to happen in my future.

"Okay now, let's get some sleep. There's quite enough drama for tonight and I'm pretty tired." Jason smile.

"Okay."

We go back and lie down in bed.

"Jason?" I turn to him.

"Yes?"

"Can I hug you to sleep?"

"No."

Jason smile. "But I can hug you to sleep. Come."

He open his arm wide and I place my cheek on his chest. Hmm. It feels good.

"No funny stuff okay!" Jason reminded.

"Uhmm." I muttered.

I feel so comfortable being hugged by this beautiful hunk and soon I find myself drifted to sleep. Peacefully.

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Melvin visited me in the morning. He asked how I was doing and all. I said last night was disaster but I feel so much better now that I could get some sleep. I tease him that maybe tonight I might need to borrow his boyfriend again to hug me to sleep. He glare at me playfully and give me a warning punch to my left shoulder.

We have breakfast together with Jason at a nearby coffee shop. I take a seat in front of them and have a good look at both Melvin and Jason. They look so cute together like that. Back then when I wasn't aware about their relationship I never pay attention to their bromance affection. I just thought they are a very good buddy.

Now, that I know they're dating, I look at them in a different light. No, it's not like I'm judging them or anything. I just can't help to notice that although they both are tall, muscular jocks, I find that Jason behave more manly than Melvin. I notice that Melvin is more of a quiet type but certainly more caring towards Jason. He's asking if Jason want to have more chili, or feed him another bite of char siew pao. Asking if he had enough drink and all. The way they look at each other and talk make me understand that both were deeply in love.

It reminds me of the way Fivien care towards me. It never occurred to me before that two guys can love each other and care for each other; without the need of one of them to turn into girls and wear skirt. I secretly imagined if it was me and Kevin who is sitting in front of me just like them.

I sigh.

"What's the matter big guy?" Jason look at me attentively. "Something's on your mind?"

"Nothing. I.." I heaved sigh. "I admit I'm kinda jealous looking at you two. You guys are so sweet to each other."

"Sorry." Melvin replied. "I didn't mean to showing off right at your face like that."

"No.. No no. It's fine. I'm okay. It's just kinda cute to see you guys like that. I just wished that I can have a boyfriend too."

Jason and Melvin look at each other and chuckled.

"Listen Tim, you didn't have to become all gay just in one night bro. You still look pretty much like a straight guy to me. You just have a little bit of curiosity in you I guess."

"Yeah, gay life isn't exactly a colorful, fabulous life as what you may think." Melvin added. "I'm lucky to find Jason and lucky to find that he loves me as much as I loves him. But outside there, not too many guys like him. And you need to be prepared to be brokenhearted."

"But, I bet once our dear friend Tim here let loose on the gay market, it will be him who'll break so many hearts I guess." Jason giggle. "Sorry, I'm just teasing you."

"Ha..ha Yeah right." Melvin added.

 

I don't know what to say.

"I admit I'm pretty new to all this and have no idea what you guys are talking about. I also not sure what I really want in my life, yet. Deep inside I still think that in the future, I'm going to get married and have kids and stuff. But I also have this strong desire to have sex with guys. Is it normal to have this thoughts?"

 

"I say that you don't have to decide anything for now bro. I think you should go on with your life as a straight man, you just need to be open with the idea that two guys can love each other. You don't have to feel all guilty and depressed about it. Whatever you told me last night about your childhood upbringing is a total bullshit and messed up. Just go on with your life, and open your heart to whoever comes your way. Girls or boys." Jason voice was calm yet firm with authority. Albeit his young age, I notice Jason was displaying some quality as an alpha male leader.

I nodded.

Jason words have brought some light into my path. As if I was blind all this time and suddenly I can see things clearly.

When they leave, I went home feeling all happy and lighthearted. I've been recalling and putting a mental note for all of Jason's  advice and give it some deep thought. I feel like I'm a changed man now and ready to embark on a journey to explore my own sexuality. And my identity as a man.

 

The road ahead seems brighter now.

End of chapter ten

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Edited March 9, 2015 by timtale

[timtale]

:::::::::DISCLAIMER:::::::::

 

I want to use this chance to say thank you for those who have been messaging me personally or by replying to this thread. I hope you guys enjoy the story as much as I do.

I want to make it clear that this story is a work of fiction. Although it's inspired loosely by true events of my life. This story is not necessarily a journal. It's hard to write a chronological journal of my life at a later stage in life; where each details has long been forgotten. Thus, some characters or actions depicted in this fiction is not exactly appear or happen as what it is in the real life. For example the persons involved in the foursome sex of chapter two is not the same as the one mentioned in chapter one. But for the sake of progressing the story and to keep it short, I have to make some combining, or switching the characters and some parts I made it up to knit all those pieces come together.

I didn't get a chance to mention this at the beginning of my writing because I have not created an account yet at that time. Then, I realized that I'm unable to modify and make changes unless I created an account.

 

It is important to enjoy this story as a fiction, because in the next part of my story; There will be appearances from some high profile characters from the local scene. Looking at how graphic and detailed I tend to be while describing an event, makes me worry that you may or may not recognize some personalities mentioned in this story. To protect their identity and privacy, I try my best to modify the names, actions and scenes of those appearances. It may or may not be true story, I prefer to keep it to myself. It's all can happen in this fictional universe of Tim's perspective; a fictional character I created whom I feel best to represent my journey of recounting those events of my life. There will be sadness, there will be some joy, and there surely be more sexual content coming up.

It's funny that initially, I just want to make a simple erotic (jerk-off) stories based on my past experiences. But before I realized, it became a roller coaster emotional ride as I recall those events out of my memory. I had a trouble sleeping at night when all those thoughts and memories are pouring in. In the end I found myself wide awake to write all of those details as much as I can while those juices are flowing.

So I wanna say thank you once again for all your kind words and supports. And I want to have a little break and rest to recuperate before I'm ready to start another roller coaster trip once again.

Cheers!

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Edited March 6, 2015 by timtale

[Guest Can't wait]

The blue line between what's real and what's not is probably one of the most interesting elements. It will be wonderful to know later what happens when an accidental meet with Kevin ensues years later and the eroticism it Sparks, even if its just once . Waiting for the next EP!

[Dcky]

Tim, personally i think by writing, it helps to let go the past... Not everyone share the same journey, take the same route... I hope you will move on happily as the stories stays behind in this forum... Hugs...

Cheers!

[otokonoko]

I enjoy reading your write ups.

*thumbs up*

[timtale]

Thanks guys. I had a very good 'much needed' sleep last night. A Long one. I'm not sure If I want to go another dealing with those past yet. I need my sleep

 

 

The blue line between what's real and what's not is probably one of the most interesting elements. It will be wonderful to know later what happens when an accidental meet with Kevin ensues years later and the eroticism it Sparks, even if its just once . Waiting for the next EP!

 

I'm not sure if I want to retell Kevin's story. There's nothing happen between me and him (sorry to disappoint you), and as I say before he's migrate to Australia and we lost contact ever since. Love come and goes, and Kevin is just one of those people who gave me some pain. I think I'm pretty done with Kevin's story arc. There's more interesting people coming up, and I'm still not sure yet how should I write it down.

 

I wanted to just retell the juicy, erotic part instead of had to deal with the dramas. Do you guys prefer to hear the dramas or the sex part only?

[hairy springroll]

Everything please lol

[Guest Limkopi]

Tim. I love your story and your adventure and encounter in Singapore.

Just wonder, have your tell your life story to your wife?

[thorzguy]

Thank you Tim for the write up. It doesn't matter if your story consist of fiction or a mixture of non fiction.

 

Keep it up!

[robin]

I think a story that has a content is far better than just a pure erotic one. Your story, under your good writing skills, manage to bring out both. Please do continue that way.

Thanks for sharing & putting so much effort in writing it, such a pleasure reading your story.

[otokonoko]

This is indeed one of the best stories, among others like Philips & Me and Basketball Guy.

A delicate balance between emotional and sexual contents.

[aedile1234]

lovely story

[Guest Particular]

Thanks Tim!! Love it to the max! . There are times that we Don want sex but hugs only. You express it all...

[timtale]

Thanks much guys. Thanks for the feedback. I will continue to write it down the way it should be.

it's time consuming, and nerve wrecking to dig those past but like "Dcky" says, It could be a therapy for me. heh.

 

I still have one or two more chapters to add into this introduction before I can touch the main part of the story.

 

I want to write it all down quickly because I don't have much time.

I'm not married yet,-if any of you wonder- but soon, probably. Seeing at how things are going in my life.

But I had my ex-girlfriend who knows about me, but that's another story to tell.

 

Cheers!

[vaio]

Thanks Tim for the great story and it's always nice to read the development of each chapter your effort is greatly appreciated

[EasleyLim]

A story that doesn't end with the main character sleeping with his newly-discovered gay friend after a night of questionable decisions?

 

Color me pleasantly surprised.

[max001]

Thank Tim for the fabulous story and I have to rush home after work to see if you have write up the next chapter hahahha... Both dramas n sex pls, hahhahha

[Guest sylvester]

Its ok after ur marriage, when u get divorced or separated, u can still come back and post andit. Thanks much!

[timtale]

Chapter 11 - The Five Love Languages

In that particular Sunday, the sun was scorching hot. So after the dragon boat practice ended, I was one of the first to head into the shower. I quickly undress and step naked into the coveted outpouring of water from the communal shower. The water feel cold and fresh on my skin; I close my eyes and soon lost myself to the sensation, feeling rejuvenated. I hear someone stepping into the water besides me and I open my right eyes to peek.

I saw a familiar muscular body facing me. Water dripping from his massive chest onto his eight pack abs and onto his groin. His huge flaccid cock was dangling low. It's not exactly a giant cock, but compare to his relative short height, it looks quite massive. Bigger than average Chinese cock. I look up and saw the owner of that huge dick was smiling wide to me.

"See something you like, Tim?" Ask Dennis. He wink at me and smirk cockily.

I blush. "Hell no! I wasn't interested in your junk okay. I'm not gay." My lips were automatically do the talking like I'm used to. It's been awhile since I had the talk with Jason about being open minded, yet here I am still a helpless homophobic hypocrite.

Dennis chuckled. He rub his hand over his chest, and I think he was playing with his nipples. "That's too bad. If you were not interested you will not turn blush looking at my sexy body." Dennis winked. I swear to god, I think his dick is growing a little bigger.

I feel my face getting red. "I'm.. I'm not blushing. It's just today weather very hot okay!"

"Yes you are." Dennis insisted. "Your asscheeks turn red when blushing."

I wheeled around.  "Don't look at my ass, Goddammit!"  Dennis hold on to his stomach laughing, as I tried to see if the accusation was true. After a few seconds that must have looked like a dog chasing its own tail, I gave up and land a playful punch to his muscular arm. I laugh along, I must look so silly just now.

Dennis is one of other teammates that I paid some interest in the shower, (other than Jason and Melvin). It's not for his average looks, but more for his massive muscles and his above average cock. The guy is tan and very muscularly toned although a bit short. He has this even tan all over his body except for his groin part. Looking at the shape of the tan, I wonder how small the brief he was using to achieve those tan.

I had a trouble getting tan myself. My tan only goes to my shoulder while my body is pale (because of the life's jacket) It's getting ugly now. So I was approaching Dennis one day to ask him some advice about tanning and he offer me to have a sun bath together one day.

So on one hot Sunday morning I went over to visit him in his condo. He's not just showing me some brand of tanning oils but he also help applies the oil all over my back while I'm lying on the tanning bench of the pool. The sight of his muscles on his skimpy trunk and the touch of his strong hand over my naked skin feels good but also gives me a weird chil. When he asked me to turn over to do my front, I refused and quibbled that I'm just feeling comfortable and feeling sleepy; while actually I was trying to hide my growing hardon. And that's when I notice he was looking at me strangely. As if like he knows what I was hiding.

There's nothing happen on that day though. I apply the oil to my front myself. But from then on I think Dennis was started to get friendly and over familiar around me. Especially in the communal shower after Dragon Boat practice. I noticed he was watching me with a knowing look on his face. I admit it's kinda freaked me out a little bit. He's not too bad as a friend but I'm not sure if he has another agenda. Or maybe I was just being paranoid. But basically I was trying my best to avoid hanging out too much with him since then.

 

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"Jason, what do you know about Dennis?"

"What do I know about Dennis? U mean our teammates?" Jason look up to face me with a confused look. We're having dinner together with Melvin after our practice as usual.

"I mean. Do you know if Dennis is like.. Us? You know.. If he's gay or interested in guys just like us? What did your gaydar says?"

Jason and Melvin look at each other for few seconds before asking. "Why you're asking that? Is he bothering you?"

I told them about the way Dennis was kind of over familiar to me and always teased me in the shower and all. I wonder if there's a meaning behind it, or if it's just me over reacting. Because I'm still pretty scared if others know that I like guys and I worry if I will get humiliated once the teams knows that I'm... Queer.

"I mean I can't read him. One moment he was like all buddy buddy with me. Then one moment he's like bashing gays along with other guys too. I afraid whether should I confess if I'm a little curious about gay sex to him?"

"And what did your heart tell you?" Jason asked.

"Well, I'm... I think... I kinda liked him. And I feel like I wanted to be his boyfriend? Perhaps?" I asked sheepishly. Feeling shy all of sudden admitting my feeling in front of my best buddies.

Jason and Melvin look at each other again. And I began to wonder if I had said something wrong.

"Dennis, he have quite a reputation." Jason speak with a careful tone. "He always wanted to have my ass and Melvin's."

"You mean he's gay too?" I grin. "That's awesome."

"Believe me Tim. He's not really a boyfriend material. You deserve someone better." Jason warn me with his concern voice.

"May I know what makes you think you like him, Tim?" Melvin asked. "Which part of him that you're interested with?"

I was taken aback by his question. I never think seriously about it though. "Mm... maybe because he has a nice body?"

Melvin sighed. "What other attributes? You can't just love a person just because of his hot body and his mammoth dick." Melvin turn to Jason and quickly saying, "Yes I know, I admit it's important to me. But..." Melvin look at me and continue. "But what have you seen in Dennis that makes you think, you'll love him? Outside his physical appearances?"

"I.. Uhm. I don't know."

Melvin rolled his eyes.

"Do you like it when he's bro-hug you?" Jason ask.

"Yes!"

"You like it when he is close to you? All friendly and touchy-feely? You like it when he put his arm around your shoulder, lean his neck casually on your shoulder and stuff like that?"

"Yes! That's right! H..How do you know?" I look at Jason in awe; impressed by his ability to speak out my deepest feeling.

Jason chuckled. "Well, you're pretty easy to read my friend."

"But... How do you know?" I asked. Feeling embarrassed now that I realized I was an open book to my best buddy.

"Have you ever heard of 'The Five Love Languages?'" Jason paused and took a drink eyeing me. When he saw that I had no clue about what he says, he continue. "You know there's so many languages when we human communicating with each other, there's so many way to express yourself through the language that you learnt. And it's the same thing when it comes to expressing love. Love is a universal language. But not everybody communicating love in the same way."

Jason continue to explain that there is known five love languages. The first is 'Word of Affirmation', meaning you express your love to others by saying 'I love you' or 'I miss you' or 'I'm so happy to be with you'. Second is through 'Gift Giving', meaning you express your love by giving a gift to your loved one. Third is 'Act of Service', meaning you express your love by serving the person you loved; giving massage, cooked for him/her, and stuff like that. Fourth is 'Quality Time', meaning you express your love to the other person by giving him/her your undivided attention by being there physically/mentally to enjoy the moment together. And the last one is 'Physical Touch', meaning you express your love by hugging, kissing, or having sex with the person you love.

"We all speak different language, and it's also the same when it comes to the five love languages. Not everybody express their love the same way. Those person who's love language is a 'word of affirmation' might get frustrated over time when the person he loves doesn't love him back by saying 'I love you' every day." Jason nudge Melvin and giving him an accusing look.

Melvin nudged back and saying, "And those person with a love language 'Act of Service' might get frustrated as well when his boyfriend doesn't want to wash his back in the shower. Or give him a back rub, or help him carry the groceries, or.." Jason cut Melvin's words by nudging him hard. Melvin nudge back, and soon those two were entangled in a nudging war.

"I think I understand now," I look at Melvin and says, "Your love language is an 'Act of Service' and that's why you like to care for Jason, by feed him or give him drinks and stuff." Melvin grin at me and mouth the word 'Bingo' without a sound.

"And your love language is..." I turn to Jason. "..'Word of affirmation', that's why you always so good with your words, always comforting, encouraging and affirming." Jason give a wide smile and wink at me.

"And my love language is... 'Physical touch'..." I said to myself. "That's why I love sex so much. And that's why I love being hugged by Dennis and all his touchy-feely act."

Jason look at Melvin and nod towards me, "He learn fast, this guy..."

"Oh my god! Now it's all make sense, Jason!" I slam the table all of sudden when all the revelation come to me. "That's why I fall in love with Kevin in the first place, it's all because he's a touchy-feely guy. And I love it when Fivien and I had our after-sex intimacy in bed. Hugging, kissing, make love. And when you were there when I broke up.." I almost wanted to say that I got so attracted to kiss Jason; it's because he hugged me. But looking at how stiff Jason is and glaring at me. I realized he doesn't want Melvin to knows that I was -almost- about to rape him that night.

"...anyway. That means it's a good thing. Right? Maybe I'm not even have feelings for those guys in the first place. I just get turned on easily to whoever get physically close to me." I try to change the subject.

"Does the sight of a muscular, sexy hot guy with a big hard dick turned you on?" Melvin asked.

"No." I said quickly. Melvin raised his right eyebrow in disbelief. "Uhmmm. Yess.. I think. Sort of. I love observing naked guys because I admire their muscles and their strength...and.."

"Yeah... It does sound pretty gay to me." Melvin interrupt and shrugged.

"Well, there's probability that you may still have some attraction to guys, Tim." Jason nodded in agreement. "Like the Kinsley scale says, you're probably not exactly exclusively hetero, but predominantly heterosexual with some incidentally homosexual. I say you maybe on scale 1, or 2."

“How do you know all this Jason? How do you know about all those stuff you’re mentioned, the five love languages, the Kinnosley scale thingie..”

“Kinsley scale.” Jason corrected. “Well, let say that I use my leisure time wisely. I read books. Any kind of self-help improvement books. Biographies, Newspaper, useful blogs or websites…”

 

“Basically, what Jason’s saying is, that he’s a nerd.” Melvin chimed in. 

“Although a damn cute one I admit...” Melvin added after he got nudged by Jason on his rib. “A cute nerd jock, with a killer eight-packs and donkey dick, who prefers to read in bed instead of giving his boyfriend a massage...”

“Do you like to read, Tim?” Jason asked, trying to change subjects. “What do you like to do in your spare time?”

“Uhm.. yeah I guess..., I love to read Japanese Manga.” I look down in embarrassment. “I watch TV, read comics, and play computer games… a... and watch porn too...”

“Now that is a true jock.” Melvin commented. “I think we should get married Tim.” He winked at me flirtatiously.

 

“It’s all good, Tim. Nothing’s wrong with those hobbies.” Jason ignoring Melvin. “But I know, that living a gay life is not easy. That’s why I prefer to fill myself with knowledge, get education as high as I can, land myself a good job, so that I can earn myself a decent income, so then I'll able to support myself living with my boyfriend even if I have to move out of my parents house.”

 

“Awwww… Isn’t that sweet?” Melvin look to Jason with a puppy eyes and batting his eyelash. “Okay I change my mind, I think I’ll marry you instead.” Melvin blow kiss in the air for Jason, but he catch it and throw it to the next table.

I chuckled. Watching how the two of them acting with each other is always so amusing.

I'm glad I have them as my closest friend.

 

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End of chapter eleven

Edited March 10, 2015 by timtale

[timtale]

Its ok after ur marriage, when u get divorced or separated, u can still come back and post andit. Thanks much!

 

Thank you for your faith in me. I do wish that my marriage will long lasting happily though,.

[eion2010]

:::::::::DISCLAIMER:::::::::

 

I want to use this chance to say thank you for those who have been messaging me personally or by replying to this thread. I hope you guys enjoy the story as much as I do.

I want to make it clear that this story is a work of fiction. Although it's inspired loosely by true events of my life. This story is not necessarily a journal. It's hard to write a chronological journal of my life at a later stage in life; where each details has long been forgotten. Thus, some characters or actions depicted in this fiction is not exactly appear or happen as what it is in the real life. For example the persons involved in the foursome sex of chapter two is not the same as the one mentioned in chapter one. But for the sake of progressing the story and to keep it short, I have to make some combining, or switching the characters and some parts I made it up to knit all those pieces come together.

I didn't get a chance to mention this at the beginning of my writing because I have not created an account yet at that time. Then, I realized that I'm unable to modify and make changes unless I created an account.

 

It is important to enjoy this story as a fiction, because in the next part of my story; There will be appearances from some high profile characters from the local scene. Looking at how graphic and detailed I tend to be while describing an event, makes me worry that you may or may not recognize some personalities mentioned in this story. To protect their identity and privacy, I try my best to modify the names, actions and scenes of those appearances. It may or may not be true story, I prefer to keep it to myself. It's all can happen in this fictional universe of Tim's perspective; a fictional character I created whom I feel best to represent my journey of recounting those events of my life. There will be sadness, there will be some joy, and there surely be more sexual content coming up.

It's funny that initially, I just want to make a simple erotic (jerk-off) stories based on my past experiences. But before I realized, it became a roller coaster emotional ride as I recall those events out of my memory. I had a trouble sleeping at night when all those thoughts and memories are pouring in. In the end I found myself wide awake to write all of those details as much as I can while those juices are flowing.

So I wanna say thank you once again for all your kind words and supports. And I want to have a little break and rest to recuperate before I'm ready to start another roller coaster trip once again.

Cheers!

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Timtale, your stories reminded me of my own....recently (last yr) I fall in love with my 5 years buddy. N the all hell break through is he told me he got a galfren and wanna to intro me and get my blessing...haiz...I couldn't take it...n started to ignoring him and piss him off...now our buddy relationship ended....sigh!

[timtale]

Timtale, your stories reminded me of my own....recently (last yr) I fall in love with my 5 years buddy. N the all hell break through is he told me he got a galfren and wanna to intro me and get my blessing...haiz...I couldn't take it...n started to ignoring him and piss him off...now our buddy relationship ended....sigh!

 

I understand your hurt. I wish you found a relationship that you're looking for. Cheers!

[timtale]

Chapter 12 - The Jocks who read books

Jason has made quite an impression in my life. I know that he always calm and collected but when he spoke, he did it with such an aura of authority and wisdom. Don't get me wrong, he can be funny and joke along sometimes--especially when Melvin is around; so it's not that he always been so serious and boring. It's far from that. To me Jason is like an ideal alpha male that I love to befriend and hang out with. I look up to him so much and found myself following and imitate his actions, hobbies and habits.  And that's include his love for reading.

Whatever Jason is reading, I read it too.

Reading is sucks, at first. I have a hard time digesting the content of the book and more often I found myself feeling sleepy. I always carry around a dictionary while I'm reading to help me translate some difficult words that I'm not used to.

When Jason is studying, I study too.

When Jason is playing, I play too.

When Jason is having sex,... Well I have sex too.

Okay not like 'having sex' with him of course. Although he used to be in my jerk off fantasy in the past, but I've outgrew them. My admiration for Jason is bigger than my crush; so I found myself look up to him as I look up to my big brother. I can't imagine myself having sex with my brother. Right?

So, I hang out alot with Jason on campus. And we have a usual study group which can often be seen having lunch together in campus cafeteria.

Jason is always sitting in the middle. And Melvin to his right. I'm sitting on Jason's left side of the table. Opposite of Jason is Rebecca, but I always called her Beck or Becky. She's Indonesian as well. She is a good friend of Jason whom become my good friend as well. Since we have a common mother's tongue so we automatically clicked right from the start. She has the most perfect complexion I ever seen on a girl, I never seen her having trouble with pimples or oily faces. I think she has a pretty face although sadly was hidden by her giant nerdy glasses. She seldom put on makeup, and always tie her hair in a ponytail. I like her because she's friendly and down to earth. Although most of the time we're teasing and mocking each other.

Left side of Becky, there's Aaron sitting with his girlfriend Zoe. Aaron is also our teammates, a tan muscular guy with oily face and short crop hair. Zoe is not exactly pretty like my type, but she has a big boobs. And always put on heavy makeup. Everytime I look at her it seems that she always fixing her makeup using her phone as mirror.

Then, there is Zac sitting on the right of Becky, a tall and handsome but quiet guy wearing specs and bracers. I never seen him bring his date.

Usually beside me sits my girlfriend(s), but often they're short lived. I mean not that they're deceased but, either I found a newer date or they found a more faithful one. Like I said, dating a uni girl is kinda boring to me. The seat now is currently empty because ever since Fivien, I hardly have any interest in girls anymore. For now.

There's few more friends who sometimes join in our table but they're not worth mentioned. So this is our usual core group in campus during lunch. And we all connected through Jason. Our usual lunch chat topics were varied from movies, music, the lecturers that we hate and pretty useless other stuff.

"Jason, what's the new book that you're reading?" I ask Jason during lunch.

"Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell. A good read so far." Jason replied.

"Really? What is it about?" I lean forward with interest. Melvin rolled his eyes and give a sarcastic remarks, "Another nerd is converted."

Becky eyeing me with curious. "Since when Mr. Playboy here reading books other than manga?"

"I can lend you the book if you want, once I'm done." Jason said ignoring Becky & Melvin's remarks. "I think you should read this one. It's very good. It says, that no matter how small your gift or talent is, once you do it over and over diligently for 10,000 hours; You will get to achieve a world-class success from it. The Beatles has done it, Bill Gates has done it too; and look how successful they become."

By now every eyes look up to Jason with full of interest.

"Any kind of talent?" Ask Zoe with curiosity.

"Any kind of talent." Repeated Jason. "As long as you do it for over 10,000 hours rule. You can become successful."

"How much exactly 10,000 hours is?" I ask. "I mean how many days or years it takes to achieve that?"

"Well, as long as you keep practicing a specific task for 20 hours of work a week. Which is around four hours a day. You can achieve the 10,000 hours rule in 10 years." Jason explained.

"So, you mean in 10 years time I can be a world class makeup artist? Awesome!" Zoe clap with excitement.

"Yes, only if you spent at least four hours a day doing make-up though," Jason replied.

"Oh believe me, she does." Aaron rolled his eyes. "Hey what's that supposed to mean?!" Zoe protested and hit Aaron playfully.

"So four hours a day huh?" Becky thought to herself. "No wonder our dear Tim here always in the top one position on Candy Crush."

"I'm not playing that anymore!" I protested. "I got better things to do now."

"Oh yeah? Like chasing a girls?" Becky sneer.

I sneer back. "Just because I didn't ask you out on a date, doesn't mean I have no better things to do okay."

"I rather become a nun than going out with you," Becky stick out her tongue and look away. I scoff back and look away to another direction.

"I'm surrounded by a bunch of nerds." Melvin muttered to himself and continue playing with his laptop.

"Hey speaking of going out. Shall we all go to club together this weekend?" Zac ask all of sudden. "You know we all have been studying hard the past weeks. It's time to have a little fun together yeah?"

"Which club?" Becky pout. “I hated Zouk and Zirca. The music sucks.”

“Why not a gay club then?” Zac smile. “I heard the music in gay club is more happening. It should be fun though.”

All eyes look to Melvin and Jason.

In our small little group, we all know that they both are gay and they both are a couple. It's not that they're announcing it to everybody on campus, but it's kinda giveaway looking at how they always together. None of us think differently of them though. I guess that's because we are all drawn to Jason because of who he is, not because of whom he's fucking. Anyway, Melvin is great person that matches Jason's personality. At first I thought he's a quiet person, little did I know once Melvin is surrounded by familiar faces he's becoming his own self; the quick talking, smart, witty guy with quite a sense of humor.

"Don't look at me." Melvin protested. "I stop going to gay club ever since this Mister Healthy boyfriend of mine lecturing me on the importance of sleeping early."

Everybody is now looking at Jason. It becomes like a habit. Every time our group decided on something we will turn to Jason as if like he's our leader. If Jason agree we'll do it, if he don't we won't.

Jason sigh. "Okay. We could use some fun going out together. But drink responsibly guys."

The rest are cheering with excitement. Becky commented that it will be a whole lot of fun since her last clubbing. Zoe warned Aaron not to get astray in the gay club alone. Zac eyes gleamed with excitement.

I sit nervously. I admit I always been curious with gay sex, but going to a gay club is like taking a big step to cross over to my darker side.

Oh dear, what will happen next.

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[eion2010]

I understand your hurt. I wish you found a relationship that you're looking for. Cheers!

Timtale: Thanks~ the relationship had ended...and pain is still pain. times will heal~

[timtale]

Chapter 13 - My first gay club (part 1 of 2)

Singapore has a few gay nightlife spot including bars, clubs, and spas. And most of them located near tanjong pagar area. So Melvin arranged to meet us up at the nearby Maxwell Food Market and from there we will go club hopping and do a little bit of touring around the area.

I admit I'm pretty nervous. At that time, I have a miss pre-concept idea about gay club. In my mind it's a promiscuous place where you will find drags and sissy guys or guys with leather outfit, half naked or topless. Yeah it's silly I know, I pick up those ideas from the western movies that I watched. To me, it's kinda scary. I'm afraid that once I step inside that place, my masculinity will be compromised. So in attempt to protect my identity and manhood, I dress up as manly as I could for that night, dark stripes long sleeve shirt, dark pants, and formal shoes. I unbuttoned the top part of the shirt, and casually style my hair with wet look like I'm used to. I look at the mirror and saw a manly macho figures and I like what I saw.

At around 11 pm, I arrived at the Tanjong Pagar MRT station, waiting for Rebecca and the rest of the guys who didn't took a cab. While I waited, I noticed a few young boys alighting and making their way out of the station. Some of them, I think most of them were stealing a glance at me. When I stare back at them, they quickly look away. I wonder if it's because I'm overdressed or something. I'm not sure if they're gay or not because they doesn't look sissy but they definitely dress more casually than I am.

I saw a pretty looking girl walking out of the station towards me and smiling. She looks sexy and hot with her outfit. I smile back at her. When she stop right in front of me, I'm a bit dumbfounded. Do I know her? She no longer smile but grinning ear to ear. That's when I recognize her.

"Oh my god! Becky?!!" I ask in disbelief.

"Pleasure to meet you." She laugh and rotate her body showing off her body, outfit and her high heels. "How do I look?"

I think my jaw was drop open for a few seconds. "Damn! You look hot! I totally didn't recognize you! Why you didn't call my name?"

"I know." She giggled. "I just wanted to see your face. I wish I took a picture just now."

I kind of speechless with the sight of this beautiful creature in front of me. I never knew Becky was this hot. Well, I kinda know that she has a pretty face, but she never wear makeup and always put on her nerdy specs. But now after she put on contact lens, some makeup and styled her hair, she look stunning. Her complexion is so perfect. She look like a different person.

"Damnit." I muttered. "If I knew you look like this, I should ask you out for a date."

She sniggered and stick out her tongue. "No way in million years Mr playboy! You should get yourself another toy for you to play."

I was about to think of some smart ass reply but was cut off by Zac's voice instead.

"Hi guys! Sorry for waiting!"

I saw Zac, Zoe and Aaron was approaching. As I expected all of them were surprised and complimenting Becky's new look. Although Zac able to straight away call out her name and praising her. Aaron jaw open. Zoe scream and run to hug Becky. Both girls giggling and straight away chit chatting talking about makeup and shoes.

It's was obvious that tonight, Becky's new look become a hot topic as we walk our way towards the Maxwell food market. Both girls totally ignore us and busy chit chatting while holding hands. I look at Aaron and saw he look a bit disturbed.

"And here I was about to enter gay club and already my girl run away with another hot chick." Aaron commented bitterly.

Zac and I chuckled and pat him in the back. "It's alright buddy. Let's get it even then. We'll hook you up with some hot guy, how about that?"

Aaron burst to laugh and punched Zac. "Asshole!" Aaron said rustling his hair.

I have a good look at Zac and found that he also put on contact lens and styled his hair. He look somehow more handsome and cute this way. I like the way his dimples formed everytime he smiles and laugh. Aaron & Zac both wearing a tight Tee shirt and jeans. And for the first time I realize Zac although not as muscular as Aaron, he do have some definition on his biceps and chest.

Melvin and Jason joined us not long after we reached Maxwell FC, and as expected they also compliment Becky's new look. Melvin scream out comically and give Bec a hug and cheek kissing which makes me abit turn off. The way Melvin does it looks a bit sissy and reminds me of the way Zoe and Becca hug each other.

Jason look as hot as usual with his white T-shirt whom accentuated his muscular chest and arm. Soon after we meet up with Jason & Melvin we make our way to our first gay destination.

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We headed to PLAY club which is the nearest gay club to the Maxwell food court. Thankfully, we didn't have to queue but straight away get our chop to enter because Melvin and Jason knew the girl who was guarding at the gate. She didn't even check our ID before giving us the chop. After placing our order of drinks, I look around the club to get an overall view.

I'm quite surprised to see that my pre-concept ideas about gay club was wrong. Totally. I don't see many drag queen and anybody wearing leathers and pointy stuff at all. It definitely has lesser girls in the crowd but the boys look normal to me. The guys look just like what I'll found in a straight club. They dress up normal. They act normal. And some even have a girl in their group. I feel more at ease with the sight. The boys were generally look young, short and I wonder if its okay for them to go club. They look under aged though.

Melvin and Jason, seems to know many friends at the club. Even Zac seems to know some friends too. Many boys stopping by and giving them a hug. At first, I'm quite disturbed by the casual intimacy between these boys. It does look kinda gay to me. But then I realize, we're indeed at a gay club. The hell was I thinking. Pretty soon I getting more comfortable with the sight of boys hugging each other or giving a peck in the cheeks. Later on, when I saw two boys kissing and making out, I no longer surprised and disgusted by the view. I even stare at them and wondering what it feels like to kiss a boy.

After we finished our drinks Melvin pull us towards the dance floor and we all started to dance. It's pretty clear that our small group was one of the best looking group in the crowd. Filled with hot jocks and sexy chicks. I noticed people were stealing glances at us with admiration and somewhat I feel kinda special and a little bit of proud. I know It's kinda shallow, but I couldn't help it. I was young back then. My identity and self worth was pretty much placed upon peer's acceptance and acknowledgement. It'll get better when I get older though.

We stand in circle and dance to the music. Zac is right, the music here was way much better to dance to. Becky seems to like it very much. I like it too. We sing to the songs and jump and scream and dance like never before. Melvin was the first to stand in the middle of our circle and wiggle his butt to the music. And soon each of us take turn to be in the middle and whore ourselves. It's hilarious, fun and sexy at the same time. When it was Aaron's turn he pulled Zoe to the middle and he kiss her and started to making out. We all scream and cheering them. After clear enough that they both rather making out instead of dancing, Melvin push them aside and pull Jason into the middle and began to dance. Zoe scream and ask both of them to kiss. Melvin shot her a middle finger and laugh. We started to clap and cheer them to kiss, and soon were followed by the crowd as well. To my delight, Jason give a wicked smile and pull Melvin closer then planted a wet sloppy kiss on his lips. I think not just us but the other people around us were screaming and shout at the sight. Zoe make a gesture fanning herself with one hand while use other hand to check temperature on her forehead. Damn. I admit it's pretty hot watching two hot hunks kissing and making out right in front of my eyes. I feel a little envious and yet found myself aroused at the same time.

Melvin let go to catch a breath and laugh. He decided they had enough and pull me to the middle to replace them. I look around and pull Becky to join me dance. She was hot and I purposely grind my erection to her hips seductively. She laugh and hit my arm. I laugh and hug her. Gosh, she's so pretty. I began to lean forward about to kiss her but she move away.

"Not a chance, Tim." She gave me a warning look. "I'm not that kind of girl that you can play with."

The shocked look on my face must be quite obvious, because she give me an apologetic smile and give me a peck in my cheek instead. She let go from my arm and pull Zac to replace her.

I feel so embarrassed by her action. Never before I got rejected by a women in the club. And I thought she was my friend. And in the desperation to save my own face I grind myself to Zac and pretend like I was about to kiss him. The rest were laughing to see how Zac is struggling to escape from my attempt. To be honest I don't mind even if I have to kiss Zac for real. He look so cute and adorable to kiss anyway. I planted my lips to his neck and cheek but he insisted to not giving his lips for me to kiss.

"Damn Tim, you're such a horny stud! I never knew you'll fuck anything!" Aaron yelled and laughed. "Hell yeah! You have no idea how long I've been wanted to kiss you too!" I let go of Zac and pulled Aaron forward. He scream panicky in his attempt to escape, but too bad Melvin and Jason were holding him and handed him over to me. Aaron were screaming out loud in disgust while I grind myself and giving him a wet sloppy kiss on his cheek. I think my lips were brushing his lips for a few times.

I quickly let go of Aaron and make a disgusted frown. "Yuck Aaron! Your face is oily!"

The rest are laughing hysterically, including Aaron.

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I excuse myself to the toilet and get myself another drink because I feeling thirsty after all those craziness.

I noticed that the club were jam packed and it takes longer for the bartender to get my drink order. So I leaned on the bar table and start observing the crowd while waiting. There's many handsome and cute guys in the club. But there's one guy in particular that catch my attention. He look so stunning in the middle of the crowd. He's a tall Chinese guy looking a bit mature but with undeniable handsome features. It reminds me of the face you only saw in TV or movies. He dressed very sharp and neat. He were talking to some friends and stand there with so much confidence in his gesture.

I was drawn by him and I realized that he have so much resemblance to Jason. Not just about the look, because he's not as bulky as Jason but about the way he carry himself. He look confident and manly. I knew that I was looking at another alpha men. When my drink was served I found myself keep staring at him. He noticed my gaze and give me a polite nod before continuing to talk to his friend. Damn, he look so sexy. I found myself so captivated by this mysterious man. I kinda wished that he will look back at me and acknowledge me but it seems that he was more interested with the conversation he has with his friend.

I feel a bit discouraged and finished up the drink. I order another drink and browse through the crowd once again. I notice some glances from other guys in the club, but none were friendly enough to smile. When they knew I was staring back at them, they quickly look away. As if that they were caught doing something they're not allowed to. I find that guys in the straight club were more friendly; when I look at them they will just smile and nod, or raise their glass. Even a stranger will have no problem to just cheer and yelled about how awesome the night is, and I will yelled back and we bump shoulder or bump fist or slap high five. It's easy to get to know new friends over our brotherly charade.

I thought that gay club was supposed to be a place where guys hook up with another guys and get to know new people. But all that I found here is just a bunch of pretentious people who can only steal glances without any balls to do something about it.

To be honest I feel abit disappointed.

But, there is one guy though, who were friendly enough and approached me for a chat. He is tall and young looking western guy who turn out to be from German. His name is Marcel. He is alone and just looking for a friend to chat with. He's nice and polite and I like talking to him.

He has a long curvy blonde hair that looks a bit messy for my taste. He wear loose T-shirt that makes him look scrawny so I didn't really pay him some attention at first. But after some ice breaking topics, I found out that he's about the same age as me and working as a freelance model. I took a second look at him and realized that he do have a handsome features. I don't quite like his long-messy-curly hair but he do have a sharp nose, square jaw, and a cleft chin. I can't exactly saw his eyes color but he look alright to me. Not exactly dashingly handsome but not every model has to look like a movie actor right?

My conversation with Marcel was disrupted by Melvin and the rest as they make their way to the toilet. I intro my new friend Marcel to the rest of my friend and he politely shake their hand and smile. Melvin told me after the rest are done from toilet, we should make our way to the next club as Melvin wanted to say hi to his friends over there.

I use this chance to excuse myself from Marcel, but before I leave we do traded a phone contact and promise him to hang out again with him some time.

So off we go to the next destination, Taboo club.

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To be continued.

[Fishoutofwater]

Great story.

 

Just one tip, try not to start a sentence with "I", "So", "Then", etc. Phrases like "To be honest" can be changed to "Honestly" as well.

Edited March 14, 2015 by Fishoutofwater