Heyy Zealous! I totally agree with you Ignore the guest above me. I remembered a perfect quote for people like him.
"In theory, light travels faster than sound. Perhaps thats why some people appear bright until they start to talk."
Your free to express and say whatever the hell you want because this is a forum for a reason. We all have regrets, things we wished we didn't do, things we wished we could have done but i feel that at the end of the day its these not so pleasant experiences that gives us the insights to grow as a person. I thoroughly relate with ur thought process and enjoyed this read. Hope things get better within ur social circle. Cheer up ok?