Feeling empty after cruising and fun in park

[Guest Park]

Yesterday I was so lost. I just sit in the park. My brain is empty. Life and work so many things to ponder. 

 

I sat in the park. I walk deep n secluded area. It was dark. But still manageable cause got street light. Saw this guy in exercise attire. And we went to a safe place to have fun. I licked his nipples and sucked his cock. He sucked my nipples and jerked me off. I cum. 

 

But I was feeling empty after that. Till this morning I feel bad. I feel I shouldnt do that. How can I face ppl if ever ppl found out. Or how about God when I finally meet him. 

 

I didnt enjoy the cumming tbh. But it was the bare body human contact that I was horny for. I want to lick his body. I like he touched my body part. 

 

Will I do this again. Shamelessly said I will. It was the cruising part, meeting the cruiser n the body touching that excites me. 

 

 

[cutejack]

I also. Always lost..lost contact of hot guys who i had fun..haizzzz

[Guest Guest]

Don't worry,  Gays who always cruise in parks, toilets, malls, public pools, etc are all feeling empty like you. They have no friends, no lover,  so empty inside them so they cruise. 

[Guest 69fun]

Where is this park ?????

[happiness]

13 minutes ago, Guest Guest said:

Don't worry,  Gays who always cruise in parks, toilets, malls, public pools, etc are all feeling empty like you. They have no friends, no lover,  so empty inside them so they cruise. 

 

This is so sad, but so true. Hope there will be less stigma against gays and gay relationships, and more acceptance and recognition of gay relationships. When people are more accepting of gay relationships, it will at least make it easier for many gays to have stable, homogamous relationships and make their relationships public to family and friends. This public recognition in turn strengthens their relationships.

[lean n mean]

Why do people expect to feel fulfilled after a quickie? You would not have such an expectation after watching a movie, going clubbing etc. You don't feel empty after such outings. It's just an activity you enjoy while at it. See cruising and accept accept cruising as what it is - to get your rocks off. Nothing more, nothing less.

Edited June 20, 2020 by lean n mean

[yuquidam]

4 hours ago, Guest Park said:

Yesterday I was so lost. I just sit in the park. My brain is empty. Life and work so many things to ponder. ...

.... He sucked my nipples and jerked me off. I cum. 

But I was feeling empty after that. ...

I didnt enjoy the cumming tbh. But it was the bare body human contact that..

I suppose if you are already feeling down before cruising then that temporary respite of touch & hugs during fun does provide some de-stressing effect while it lasts. Ultimately, the root of your emptiness still need to be addressed. But bro, life has its ups and downs. When up we just need to be prepared for down times. When down we just remind ourselves that the ups will return if we stay hopeful and positive. 

Edited June 20, 2020 by yuquidam

[auscent]

"How can u face ppl if they find out?"

 

Maybe be discreet if it is shared public places. Other than that: whats wrong with having biological desire with consenting adult? What, these ppl got no hormones no desires?

 

[Guest Also guest]

6 hours ago, Guest Park said:

.. things to ponder. 

 

But I was feeling empty after that. Till this morning I feel bad. I feel I shouldnt do that ...  how about God when I finally meet him. 

 

Will I do this again. Shamelessly said I will. 

 

 

God cannot help you if you cannot help yourself. 🙃

[Guest Fatty]

Go cruising again tonight. Then you won't feel so empty anymore because you have a purpose.

[Guest Yourself]

You got yourself into this. Only you can get yourself out. 

 

 

[Guest Park]

1 hour ago, Guest Yourself said:

You got yourself into this. Only you can get yourself out. 

 

 

I feel so useless. I can't get myself out. Wondering of my existence.

[Guest park addict]

On 6/20/2020 at 6:44 PM, Guest Park said:

I feel so useless. I can't get myself out. Wondering of my existence.

You are not alone. As a matter of fact I'm about to head out to a park. At this hour probably nobody but still I want to go try my luck.

[robin]

TS, learn to recognize that what you are yearning for is someone whom you know you matter to, whom you can talk to & give you a good hug & tell you that everything is alright & under control.  It can be a good friend, a brother or a soulmate. Work towards that.

Edited June 21, 2020 by robin

[wilfgene]

5 hours ago, robin said:

TS, learn to recognize that what you are yearning for is someone whom you know you matter to, whom you can talk to & give you a good hug & tell you that everything is alright & under control.  It can be a good friend, a brother or a soulmate. Work towards that.

The choice of cruising in these days of social medias, apps and saunas only reveals an inclination of self-depredation, if not destruction.

Taking into consideration the "Sauce Jug Culture" as enlightened by Bo Yang in "The Ugly Chinese", mark and shun them.   

[upshot]

On 6/20/2020 at 8:47 AM, Guest Park said:

Yesterday I was so lost. I just sit in the park. My brain is empty. Life and work so many things to ponder. 

 

I sat in the park. I walk deep n secluded area. It was dark. But still manageable cause got street light. Saw this guy in exercise attire. And we went to a safe place to have fun. I licked his nipples and sucked his cock. He sucked my nipples and jerked me off. I cum. 

 

But I was feeling empty after that. Till this morning I feel bad. I feel I shouldnt do that. How can I face ppl if ever ppl found out. Or how about God when I finally meet him. 

 

I didnt enjoy the cumming tbh. But it was the bare body human contact that I was horny for. I want to lick his body. I like he touched my body part. 

 

Will I do this again. Shamelessly said I will. It was the cruising part, meeting the cruiser n the body touching that excites me. 

 

 

 

You sound like you have a devil and angel sitting on your shoulders heheheh debating to do or not to do.

 

There is NOTHING wrong to go thru this see-saw rationale in your head. Pleasure versus Guilt ... and more. It happens to the best of us, sometime very loud and sometime just a little whisper. But enough to make us stop and think. Thinking is good. Many of these 'hesitating' instances spin around your mind, no understanding about primal instinct, struggle to  compartmentalizing your emotion in relation to sex, practical consideration about risk assessment....etc

 

I think feel, that is a healthy and natural thought process for any 'average Joe on the street(park)'. If not, either you already formed a firm decision to KEEP DOING IT without regret; or you are new and still trying to make sense of this activity and need time to work your feelings thru it. Whether you're gay at a spa or park ....or a str8 cruising bars for ONS, any person with a sense of playing it safe and caution, your feelings will come to this cross road. Talk it out, weigh your options and come to term with knowing who you are.

 

FIRSTLY, cruising is NOT a must-do gay thingy... know that to be true. It's not for everyone. You could be someone conservative and less adventurous by nature. You should not feel you have to participate. Even for gays folks, there is a SPECTRUM. Your personality plays a big part and will tend to draw you to a specific group of activities and belief. You can pick and choose where you stand today and still can change it tomorrow. If something is not for you, find another form have sex or not.

 

I feel sometime there are too many stupid stereotyping of what makes a gay. I promote that before you make assumption or pass judgement, best TRY IT ONCE to be sure or get a feel for it. If not, you linger for the rest of your days wondering if you should or shouldn't do; and likely miss out on something. There are lots of loud white noise surrounding us in real life, social media and comments you read in sites like BW. So know yourself and do what 'floats-your-boat'.

 

Now that you have done it a few time? You should understand something yourself by now. Notice a part of you still have urges to go again. Another part, fear of health issue doing with complete strangers, sex without emotion, feeling nothing doing sex, fear if people found out or caught during raids; police patrolling parks or bump into person(s) you know who not know you are a closet gay; or worst married man doing sex with guys ...etc.  All this examples, are thoughts many of us have during those outdoor fun with strangers or even fuck buddies. Your ability to work around those pitfalls will results in whether you keep doing it without worry or not.

 

So unpack each one of those troubling thoughts and deal with them that way is easy then trying to find one answer addressing the whole BIG ROCK.

 

Cautious thoughts flashes thru my head always when I am at the park cruising or exhibiting, it keeps me on edge, thinking clearly and fully aware of my environment. Its a lot of work in the beginning but overtime, a natural reflex action that happens naturally. Makes it easier to enjoy myself. Throwing caution to the wind is where 'gotcha' problems happen and I have my share of it. No intention to repeat. Ya, good fun takes work too. Man.

 

What we are doing is already RISKY enough without making it worst. Something to think about.

 

NOTE: LOOKING FOR LOVE OR LTR at crusing haunts is a BAD MISTAKES.

Edited June 22, 2020 by upshot

[Guest Bemoan]

What a tragic story but could be the story for most of us. Acceptance is the key. 

[Guest Guest]

Cruisers are all empty that's why they cruise..... No meh?

[Baredom]

I was just thinking yesterday, what it would look like if everyone felt free to espress themselves sexually the way they wanted to and not succumb to any pressure or expectation. Perhaps a more honest society? Or perhaps a more depraved one?

[doncoin]

Every cruise has to return to its home port at some point to refuel and replenish supplies. After several days out at sea, where you had fun on the waterslides, casino, etc, it is natural to experience some post-cruise blues. To reduce the feelings of emptiness etc. think of other activities you can do instead of cruising. Do things that bring you joy, and not create emptiness. If cruising is something you truly enjoy, try exploring different itineraries to see other parts of the world. 😈

[Guest Kosong]

The purpose of cruising is to have fun. The purpose of having fun is to empty out all the cum. After cum cums out, inside becomes empty lor. Nothing to worry about.

 

Only worry when you ejaculate and finds that nothing comes out. KOSONG??!! 

[Guest Dry sia]

 

The purpose of cruising is to have fun. The purpose of having fun is to empty out all the cum. After cum cums out, inside becomes empty lor. Nothing to worry about.

 

Only worry when you ejaculate and finds that nothing comes out. KOSONG??!! 

 

Never heard of dry ejaculation? 

[Guest Guest]

The cure for the emptiness after cruising is one more cock up his ass and another one more down his throat. 🥰

[Guest Nice]

 

Every cruise has to return to its home port at some point to refuel and replenish supplies. After several days out at sea, where you had fun on the waterslides, casino, etc, it is natural to experience some post-cruise blues. To reduce the feelings of emptiness etc. think of other activities you can do instead of cruising. Do things that bring you joy, and not create emptiness. If cruising is something you truly enjoy, try exploring different itineraries to see other parts of the world. 😈

You are so nice to believe his story 

[singalion]

On 6/20/2020 at 8:47 AM, Guest Park said:

Yesterday I was so lost. I just sit in the park. My brain is empty. Life and work so many things to ponder. 

 

I sat in the park. I walk deep n secluded area. It was dark. But still manageable cause got street light. Saw this guy in exercise attire. And we went to a safe place to have fun. I licked his nipples and sucked his cock. He sucked my nipples and jerked me off. I cum. 

 

But I was feeling empty after that. Till this morning I feel bad. I feel I shouldnt do that. How can I face ppl if ever ppl found out. Or how about God when I finally meet him. 

 

I didnt enjoy the cumming tbh. But it was the bare body human contact that I was horny for. I want to lick his body. I like he touched my body part. 

 

Will I do this again. Shamelessly said I will. It was the cruising part, meeting the cruiser n the body touching that excites me. 

 

 

 

 

Sounds like an addictive rush, the idea that hypes you but when you're at it the hype is gone. Sort of adrenaline push. 

 

You might lose interest into day to day sex if you go on. 

 

You have to see for yourself how to continue, cut it down or even more of it. 

 

[Guest Guest]

1 hour ago, singalion said:

 

 

Sounds like an addictive rush, the idea that hypes you but when you're at it the hype is gone. Sort of adrenaline push. 

 

You might lose interest into day to day sex if you go on. 

 

You have to see for yourself how to continue, cut it down or even more of it. 

 

 

Don't you have anything better to do than to dig out a thread which was last replied 6 months ago, just so that you can give advice to someone who posted it almost 3.5 years back? Are you also the same person who has been digging out old threads recently under the guise of a guest, just like how a guest went to revive this thread 3 years after it went silent?

 

Seriously, get a life, will you?

[singalion]

It is really nice to have a sincere fan here!

 

Love it! 🥰

[Guest Guest]

21 minutes ago, singalion said:

It is really nice to have a sincere fan here!

 

Love it! 🥰

 

Little things please little minds. 

[Steve5380]

On 3/12/2024 at 2:39 AM, Guest Guest said:

 

Little things please little minds. 

 

We know quite well that you are very pleased with yourself.

[Swimfun]

On 6/20/2020 at 8:47 AM, Guest Park said:

Yesterday I was so lost. I just sit in the park. My brain is empty. Life and work so many things to ponder. 

 

I sat in the park. I walk deep n secluded area. It was dark. But still manageable cause got street light. Saw this guy in exercise attire. And we went to a safe place to have fun. I licked his nipples and sucked his cock. He sucked my nipples and jerked me off. I cum. 

 

But I was feeling empty after that. Till this morning I feel bad. I feel I shouldnt do that. How can I face ppl if ever ppl found out. Or how about God when I finally meet him. 

 

I didnt enjoy the cumming tbh. But it was the bare body human contact that I was horny for. I want to lick his body. I like he touched my body part. 

 

Will I do this again. Shamelessly said I will. It was the cruising part, meeting the cruiser n the body touching that excites me. 

 

 

Wondering how you're doing after all these years looking at the past. Have you straightened out, gotten married, or are you happily attached to your dream partner? Or are you still cruising in the same spot but becoming hungrier? Share your thoughts and let the junior understand the lifecycle of natural aging and maturity.

[Guest The Answer]

2 hours ago, Swimfun said:

Wondering how you're doing after all these years looking at the past. Have you straightened out, gotten married, or are you happily attached to your dream partner? Or are you still cruising in the same spot but becoming hungrier? Share your thoughts and let the junior understand the lifecycle of natural aging and maturity.

Compared to previous generations, it is now nearly impossible to cruise freely due to changes in the population and the landscapes. The emergence of chatrooms, intrusive smartphone and internet pornography also significantly decreased the need and risk of cruising. 

 

Since many mature gay men have already experienced their formative years and are aware of how exhausting those years can be, they are now content to spend their time browsing the internet or reminiscing about bygone days while planning to live out their aged lives to the fullest, whether they are married or single.  Most significantly, the once beautiful and handsome boys then, now look wrinkly and old under the brutal of the time.  

 

In contrast to the "hungry" and young junior men, I believe many matured gay already have their own homes where they can pursue their own interests and happily leave behind their cruising footprints from the era of old and occassionally, in the quiet of days, regale themselves with memories.....