I Want To Be Straight.

[Guest -Waltz-]

I'm sick and tired of being gay. Having to constantly live in an environment where there are close to zero gay guys, and surrounded by straight guys is hell. I cannot stop myself for falling for them even though they're treating me like a "bro".

Worst thing is, when I see them talk to females or worst, they telling me that he likes another girl and would like to have a relationship with her, I cannot do anything at all. I tried backing off and not contacting my straight friend but it does not work. It saddens me to see that he is ok with my departure while I'm hurting inside when I remove myself from the friendship.

I'm tired alr, tired of all the arguments we have cause I asked for things which are too much for friends. I want to leave this world & just be alone with my dogs. Why must we gays live such a lonely existence?

Such is my reality, a sad irrationality.

[topLTR_93]

Not to mention. Theres this hint of jealousy and anger when your crush runs of with a bitch thats ugly than .... dolores umbridge.

[Guest cactus]

  On 5/6/2012 at 1:30 PM, -Waltz- said:

I'm sick and tired of being gay. Having to constantly live in an environment where there are close to zero gay guys, and surrounded by straight guys is hell. I cannot stop myself for falling for them even though they're treating me like a "bro".

Worst thing is, when I see them talk to females or worst, they telling me that he likes another girl and would like to have a relationship with her, I cannot do anything at all. I tried backing off and not contacting my straight friend but it does not work. It saddens me to see that he is ok with my departure while I'm hurting inside when I remove myself from the friendship.

I'm tired alr, tired of all the arguments we have cause I asked for things which are too much for friends. I want to leave this world & just be alone with my dogs. Why must we gays live such a lonely existence?

Such is my reality, a sad irrationality.

You are making a fuss. 还真会发牢骚。 :clap:

Once a gay, forever a gay.

Straight turn into Gay can be easy. Gay turn into Straight is almost impossible.

[tyan]

I was thinking about this lately too. Sometimes I feel that gay circle are so superficial.

They only care about looks, age, body, cock only.

What else?

[Guest X]

  On 5/6/2012 at 1:30 PM, -Waltz- said:

I'm sick and tired of being gay. Having to constantly live in an environment where there are close to zero gay guys, and surrounded by straight guys is hell. I cannot stop myself for falling for them even though they're treating me like a "bro".

Worst thing is, when I see them talk to females or worst, they telling me that he likes another girl and would like to have a relationship with her, I cannot do anything at all. I tried backing off and not contacting my straight friend but it does not work. It saddens me to see that he is ok with my departure while I'm hurting inside when I remove myself from the friendship.

I'm tired alr, tired of all the arguments we have cause I asked for things which are too much for friends. I want to leave this world & just be alone with my dogs. Why must we gays live such a lonely existence?

Such is my reality, a sad irrationality.

next time before u withdraw urself from them, think it through if u can really bear to do without them...

no point crying over spilt milk when u are the one who leave them and yet feel even more painful when they seem like they can move on normally without ur presence.. dont forget that u made the first move to distant urself from them... to a certain degree, i think you probably want to escalate certain reactions from the people you distant from, like showing more concern and attention towards u..or even showing that they really need u to assure the insecurity within urself of the placement and importance of u in their heart...

moreover, u are feeling this way because u fell in love with a straight guy and expected more from him than feelings for a buddy...

straight guys also feel this pain and agony when the gal they love rejected them and like other guys... so this feeling isnt onlt applicable for the AJ circle but applies to all sorts of relationships..

my suggestion to you is probably to start with befriending and getting to know how platonic aj friends/relationship works... self-pitying will get you no where, and you will just be trapped in this vicious cycle every other time u like another guy who doesn't like you...i've been through ur phase in the past... All the best X

[boybelow]

You are not alone. Perhaps, some gays are in far more complicated situations. Life is about making choices and if you can muster enough will, go for it and try being straight.

[loneslones22]

  On 5/6/2012 at 1:40 PM, tyan said:

I was thinking about this lately too. Sometimes I feel that gay circle are so superficial.

They only care about looks, age, body, cock only.

What else?

agree. they are only into sex sex and more sex? my ex can actually meet another guy for fun on his birthday just simply because he didnt know if i can book out.

it seriously make me wonder how does aj survive sometimes...

[Guest Evan12]

gay circle are superficial becox most guys are. Its part of guys. Anyway I think its always the case of grass is greener on the other side. When we are gay, we think we are lonely, pathetic, surrounded like sex craving people and only knows how to bitch and party. And we starts thinking perhaps we should be with a woman to have that beautifully painted family life and live happily ever after. But no matter how beautiful we think it is..its only our perspective. Haven't we heard whining stories from married man before? Marrying a gal has its own share of nitemares.

In any relationships theres always pros and cons. On the bright side, when we part with another man, we dun have to pay alimony and doesnt need to go thru pregnancy with a male partner.

[oralb]

To the TS:

If you wish to be straight just because of a losing relationship with a guy, then can I ask what if you "become" straight and encounter the same thing with a woman, what will you do then?

"Return" to gay?

become celibate?

To the rest, I have no idea how gay life is superficial got dragged into this. The TS has a relationship problem for falling for the wrong person,this could happen to everyone - straight or gay.

[tic-toc]

  On 5/6/2012 at 1:30 PM, -Waltz- said:

I'm sick and tired of being gay. Having to constantly live in an environment where there are close to zero gay guys, and surrounded by straight guys is hell.....hings which are too much for friends. I want to leave this world & just be alone with my dogs. Why must we gays live such a lonely existence?

U started with the wrong foot by having feelings for the wrong target. If u picked a straight guy, chances are your love with not be returned. Be realistic with your expectations. If a girl says she loves me, in no circumstance that I could love her, no matter how perfect she may be.

I don't know where you live but if it is in Singapore, it is impossible NOT to meet any gay boys. We are everywhere. So no excuse for not knowing any.

BTW, if you really want to turn straight, (like your title reads) then you should start by leaving BW.

[Guest 2012]

  On 5/6/2012 at 1:40 PM, tyan said:

I was thinking about this lately too. Sometimes I feel that gay circle are so superficial.

They only care about looks, age, body, cock only.

What else?

Well, I guess you perpetuate this belief with your young, body revealing, self-taken profile picture then. And what makes you think that straight guys topics are deep when they talk boobs, chicks, looks and vagina?

[alien]

  On 5/6/2012 at 1:35 PM, cactus said:

You are making a fuss. 还真会发牢骚。 :clap:

Once a gay, forever a gay.

Straight turn into Gay can be easy. Gay turn into Straight is almost impossible.

How come str8 turn into gay is easy?

Anyway, whether u can work out well in ur relationship with another guy or not, dun think u can just like tht turn str8 overnight. Being a gay or str8 is something tht u cannot choose. It is not something like u smoke for 20 years, and now u can just quit smoking entirely. If u think u have "successfully" thought u have turned from gay to str8. But deep inside u u really think so?

Edited May 6, 2012 by alien

[Guest some guy]

only 2 words: be yourself. it does take lots of courage and sometimes it may hurt some one, but you must learn how to do it with minimal hurt to the ppl who care about you and whom you care about. After all, you only have 1 life, dont miss it for anything else. BE YOURSELF!

[SeannyShortcake]

You can and want to fxxk chee bye? If so,such a thread does not require creation.

Find a bf la.

Ajs are every-fxxking-where these days. Whip out your smart phone and grinding for starters.

[matthewleon]

:-)

I can only smile and move on with life :-)

I suppose many of us share the same sentiments but maybe not in the same sense :-)

[Guest Guest]

I had a professor the once said, “You create your own HELL"

It's your life and you have the "free will" to do what you want with it. Your biggest complaint is not being around gay people. There are gays all around but you need to put an effort in to go out and meet them.

You sound like a much unfocused, undisciplined individual that doesn't have any direction in life.

Why not sit down and make some life goals. Then formulate a plan to make it come true.

The other thing about happiness is humans are happiest when they help others. Maybe you could find some "peace of mind" by volunteering. By helping the less fortunate, it just might give you a feeling of fulfilment and contentment.

[qedcwc]

In my life, there are at least 7 people who I have fallen for, all guys and 6 of them are straight. Of the straight ones, two of them are married and three are in ongoing relationships. They are the few ones among my circle of friends who are so willing to spend time either to accompany me or to listen to my grievances. The only gay one is, however, not interested in pursuing a relationship.

I can only say that love is something that cannot be forced. When I see my friends who are happily married or in a relationship, I feel happy for them as well and I just give them my blessings. There are often instances where you need to learn to let go. What is not yours will never be yours. Period.

[Guest cactus]

  On 5/6/2012 at 5:14 PM, alien said:

How come str8 turn into gay is easy?

I never say "is easy" wor.... Read my post again. I said, it "can be easy" lah. Vomit blood.

  On 5/6/2012 at 1:35 PM, cactus said:

Once a gay, forever a gay.

Straight turn into Gay can be easy. Gay turn into Straight is almost impossible.

Comparing 'Straight to Gay' with 'Gay to Straight' , converting 'Straight to Gay' is still easy than converting 'Gay to Straight'.

  On 5/6/2012 at 5:14 PM, alien said:

Being a gay or str8 is something tht u cannot choose.

Everybody knows this.

  On 5/6/2012 at 5:14 PM, alien said:

It is not something like u smoke for 20 years, and now u can just quit smoking entirely.

Please do not use this as example. I knew couple of people smoked for more than 20 years, and suddenly just quit. Up to you to believe, I won't share this further.

But, I understand what you are saying.

  On 5/6/2012 at 5:14 PM, alien said:

If u think u have "successfully" thought u have turned from gay to str8. But deep inside u u really think so?

If you think I have written such post, kindly point to me.

I never say something like this. Please read my previous posts carefully in this thread again.

Vomit blood siar.

Edited May 7, 2012 by cactus

[EasleyLim]

  On 5/7/2012 at 4:24 AM, cactus said:

I never say "is easy" wor.... Read my post again. I said, it "can be easy" lah. Vomit blood.

Comparing 'Straight to Gay' with 'Gay to Straight' , converting 'Straight to Gay' is still easy than converting 'Gay to Straight'.

Everybody knows this.

Please do not use this as example. I knew couple of people smoked for more than 20 years, and suddenly just quit. Up to you to believe, I won't share this further.

But, I understand what you are saying.

If you think I have written such post, kindly point to me.

I never say something like this. Please read my previous posts carefully in this thread again.

Vomit blood siar.

Eh, no need get so defensive right. So aggresive for what, helping the TS is the more important thing here. Don't have to make everything about you lar. I read your reoly then want to puke blood sia.

[Guest cactus]

  On 5/7/2012 at 4:58 AM, EasleyLim said:

Eh, no need get so defensive right. So aggresive for what,

不确实的，我要make fast correction. 不要诬蔑/陷害我。Wait future post, he attack me again.

If you think I aggressive, so be it.

  On 5/7/2012 at 4:58 AM, EasleyLim said:

Don't have to make everything about you lar. I read your reoly then want to puke blood sia.

You already attacked me in the previous thread.

Edited May 7, 2012 by cactus

[Guest Guest]

  On 5/7/2012 at 4:58 AM, EasleyLim said:

I read your reoly then want to puke blood sia.

Please lah, don't get bitchy and personal hor.

[EasleyLim]

  On 5/7/2012 at 5:27 AM, cactus said:

不确实的，我要make fast correction. 不要诬蔑/陷害我。Wait future post, he attack me again.

If you think I aggressive, so be it.

You already attacked me in the previous thread.

Wtf? Just because someone questioned or posts a differing opinion doesn't mean he's out to prove you wrong and assert his superiority over you leh. Some people honestly don't know and want you to clarify. Not everything is about proving you're correct and everyone else wrong.And at guest, cactus used it twice in this thread. I'm not the only bitch here please.

[Guest Fake "straight"]

I am thinking to turn "straight" also, the only reason is I do not have a house now and planning to marry just to allow me to buy a house.

Marry with a les might be a good move, as we can own a house, she can has her own life, and it is same to me.

Just some time we might need to "pretend" we are couple in front of our parent.

Anyone thinking before?

[Guest shenderz]

Being gay is an inclination, which you cannot change.

You can choose to be in a gay relationship, a hetero relationship or celibate.

Even for a gay relationship, it can be just purely physical or more.

Your problems stem from being not willing to face the truth of your sexuality and trying to hide it or run away from it.

Start facing yourself as a gay and think of what you can do, such as having gay friends for support and advice.

[Guest cactus]

  On 5/7/2012 at 2:39 PM, Fake "straight" said:

I am thinking to turn "straight" also, the only reason is I do not have a house now and planning to marry just to allow me to buy a house.

Marry with a les might be a good move, as we can own a house, she can has her own life, and it is same to me.

Just some time we might need to "pretend" we are couple in front of our parent.

Anyone thinking before?

Better don't do this.

If you want to go straight, then go full straight.

I have seen people go straight, cannot resist, then outside marriage still have sex with men (once in a while only). Alamak...scary.

[alien]

  On 5/7/2012 at 4:24 AM, cactus said:

If you think I have written such post, kindly point to me.

I never say something like this. Please read my previous posts carefully in this thread again.

Vomit blood siar.

Haha, pai seh, the post i written didnt refer to u. I was just posting as a general comments.

[radialhead]

Only through acceptance comes enlightenment. I wish you find you enlightenment soon.