amuse.ed Posted November 5, 2020 Author Report Share Posted November 5, 2020 2020年 11月 05号 星期四 热 Dear Diary, weather turns hot and humid again. That's Singapore weather for you. Often its like 忽冷忽热.... akin human relationships. My energies abit quirky lately, Could it be andropause that I am experiencing? But I am 42... has it come early? Perhaps its this world of uncertainties that I am in now that I am feeling insecure with myself.. what can I do to curb it? I have no answer for now but did like to choose to think and feel that change is constant and I have to adapt to it. "ET, you have come this far and to reach this life phase is pretty commendable". Ok that statement is just a booster and self consolation. Dairy, last night I spoke about trust and the fact that there are only that few people that I feel can be trusted. This was stemmed from childhood where there were many mistrust situations that I had experienced. That bring me to this question...What contribute to trust? How can I do to consciously build it? After much thoughts, imho trust has these few elements: T: Tenacity-- should withstand time R: Relational-- its relatable, bilateral U: Understand-- seek to understand S: Steadfast-- not easily shaken T: Totality-- Its an overall holistic experience If there is a checklist or a scale to rate each element... I think I will fail big time. Hmmm.... its like me now opening up a can of worms and I couldn't close it now. Again shooting myself at the foot unnecessarily. 😅😅😅 I need a break Diary, a break from all these human interperonal relationships and focus on my ikigai. May I emerge stronger after I sort through my thoughts and emotions on this matter (or never will). Its a life skill that I need to refine Perhaps the stars and planets are telling me something. "Recharging myself in progress......." Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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